Stuck in the middle (mavi)

chapter 19

scott

i pulled mitch in for a hug, i have missed his hugs, it felt like he was mine again, i still loved him, i have always loved him. i could never stop thinking about him. when i first saw him i didnt plan on seeing him. looking into his eyes again made me want to cry, i wanted to kiss him, to hug him, to tell him that i loved him...but i couldnt..

he moved away from me, opening the door and shutting it behind him, what was left of my heart shatters. it felt like the day he left me for avi, it felt like all hopes of me getting my mitch back was not possible. i couldnt move, i felt paralyzed and fell to my knees.

a sudden realization that i wont get mitch back, he wouldnt come back to me and i started to cry, cry? no i bawled, i sobbed like there was no tomorrow. my arm was rested on the couch. i felt a sudden rage grow in my body and i flipped the couch over.

i looked over and pushed the first thing i saw, which was a lamp and the glass shattered on the ground. i stumbled back and bumped into the tv and it toppled over.   

Tears were streaming down my eyes. There was a horrifying pain in my chest, it felt like i couldnt breathe. My head started pounding. I moved my hand to my head and a sharp object cut my skin. I winced in pain bringing my hand up so i could see where i was cut. A sharp piece of glass had cut my wrist. After a while i forgot about the pain and watched the blood drip from my wrist.

I got up and trudged to the kitchen, taking out a knife frome the drawers, walking up the stairs and shutting myself in the bathroom. I sat on the toilet seat, looking directly at myself in the mirror.

"Youe are a horrible person" i said to myself as i made the first cut. "Thats why mitch doesnt love you" i made the second cut. "You are ugly." third cut. "Thats why he chose avi" fourth cut. "You are selfish, you didnt think of mitch and how lonely he was when you and alex were..." ;) i couldnt finish the sentence. Thinking about that made my heart ache. I made another cut and another and another. My hand gave out and didnt have the strength to do anynore. I watch the blood drip, it was somehow calming and soothing.

I spaced out when i heard the bathroom door slam open. He chucked the knife from me and stood ne up, rinsing my arm under the tap.  He pulled me out of the bathroom and sat mee down and he came back with a first aid box and wrapped a bandage around my wrist.

"SCOTT WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING!" i couldnt reply, all i could think of was mitch. Avi's face jeeps reminding me of the day mitch left me. It felt like my heart just leaped out of my chest because no i was hyperventilating.

"MITCH...D-DONT....LEAVE.... M-ME!" I was shaking so much and i was feeling light headed. Everything started to spin.

I blanked out.

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Mitch

I reached the house and it was a mess. I ran straight upstairs into scotts bedroom, i saw him lay there sleeping. I sat next to him wiping the tears from my eyes. I cant believe avi hasnt told me about this until now. Yeah svott is not my boyfriend anymore but he was... and hopefully still is my best friend. 

I got up and went downstairs. I had to clear up. Avi came through the door and walked over to me, reaching out to hold me but i stepped back.

"Dont touch me." I turned around and started picking the Pieces of glass carefully. I cleard all that up and took the lamp out side into the garden. When i came inside avi was setting the tv back where it was. I went inside the kitchen and got the mop to clean the blood off the floor. Avi put the couch the right way up and placed the pillows neatly in its place. We were bothe done with the house and went into the kitchen.

I reached out to grab the bottle of water and so did avi and our hands met. I didnt look up at him but i could feel him staring at me. I let go of the bottle and let him have it but he didnt take it.  I turned away from him but he held my hand, twisted me afound to face him and engulfed me in a hug.

I broke. I held onto him so tightly and burst into tears. I needed a hug from him so bad. I wasnt angry at him, i was upset that it took him this long to tell me. I cried like my stomach was hurting me and there was a sharp pain in my chest and he held me tighter.

"Mitch im sorry." I could hear the pain in his voice, "its just so much was happening..and i..." i kissed him. I didnt want to listen to his reasons, not right now but i needed to tell him something.

"Avi." I said stepping back to look in his eye. He nodded his head. "I have thought about this and..." i hesitated to finish my sentence. What if he doesnt like me decision. But i have to.

"What is it mitch" he asked, starting to sound worried.

"I am moving back in with scott."

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;) . Yes i put that winky face on purpose, now why would i put a winky face there. The question everyone has probably been wondering for a while now is what did alex and scott do that day? Your question will be answered soon.

Im gonna stop there.

Hope you enjoyed this chapter. I have free-ish weekend so expect more chapters. Aaaannnnndddd hioe you have a good day

STAY FRUITY! X