Dangerous. // J.C //

Chapter 12

- 4 weeks later -

I sighed, the erge to tell Alexis that I killed Sam and Ricky has been on my mind and its eating its way out of my brain slowly and soon it will slip out of my mouth to her. 

I want to tell her, I really really do. But she'll leave. She'll get pissed off at me and I honestly don't want none of that. I haven't been arguing with her at all. Its been actually pretty good but once I tell her, she'll explode but I have to. 

So, I'm doing it today when I take her out to lunch. 

I'm nervous but then again, I'm not. I think I have the courage to just say, "Alexis, I killed them for you. To protect you," I'm not 'scared' to tell her. I'm just scared that she'll do something bad. So, that's why I'm taking her out in public. She won't shout in public, right?

Once the time came, I picked her up and drove to a small little food place that I took her to a while back. When we sat down at a table near the back where people weren't that far. 

Alexis looked down at the menu for a few seconds but looked up, raising her eyebrow at me. 

"Why are you staring at me?" She laughed, rolling her eyes playfully. I half smiled, shrugging my shoulders then took a deep breath. 

"I need to tell you something very important," I spoke quietly, "but please, don't get angry at me." I continued and she slowly nodded, confused. 

"Okay. Four weeks ago, I snuck out while you were sleeping. Me, Kian, Trevor and Connor went to do something horrible," I started off and she stared at me, waiting for me to continue, "we went to Sam and Ricky's house.... We... killed them. For you though! I wanted to protect you for good. I wanted you to be safe. I had to do this, I should've done it a long time ago when they killed my family but I didn't and now that I have you... I don't want you killed by them. I was protecting you, Lex. I don't want you dead. Its bad enough I got you kidnapped and raped. But if I got you killed, I wouldn't forgive myself. Please, don't get angry with me." I breathed out, looking at her reaction. 

Alexis' jaw dropped down to the floor, her eyes started to fill up with tears and she shook her head repeatedly. 

"Jc," She whispered, leaning forward towards me, "murdering them was not the solution and you know that." 

"But if I didn't, they wouldn't stop until they kill you." I whispered back lowly, looking around to make sure no one was listening. 

"Can we talk about this when we get home?" She asked, "But then we'll scream and argue if we do." I cut her off. 

"So, you brought me in public to say this so I wouldn't yell at you? I'm not scared to scream at you in here, Jc." Alexis rolled her eyes, standing up. "I'm not hungry anymore." She mumbled, walking towards the door and I followed her. 

"Alexis! I'm sorry." I walked beside her towards the car in the parking lot. 

"Look Jc, I'm not your girlfriend. I'm not your sister or anything for that matter. Why are you being so over protective when I'm not yours! Its so annoying. I control my life, not you. I protect myself, not you. Its your fault I got kidnapped, its your fault I got raped, its your fault I got beaten by not only Ricky and Sam but by YOU. I'm completely done. I'm so done with you." She gave me a death glare and continued to walk to the car. 

"I know that its my fault. I hate myself for it! I blame myself every fucking day! I regret doing this to you!" I whispered/shouted at her, unlocking the car and got in the drivers seat while she got in the passengers. 

"Then why the hell did you choose me?! You're the one who dragged me into your fucked up life!" Alexis shouted, crossing her arms over her chest. I took a deep breath.

"Because I actually liked you!!" I screamed back as I drove towards her house. 

Then it got silent. She sat there, staring at me with wide eyes and i looked at her once I stopped at a stop light. 

"You like me? That sounds like a lie." She says lowly.

"Well, honey. I'm not lying." I mumble to myself but loud enough for her to hear. She smiled, poking my cheek. 

"Aw! Justin Caylen likes meeeeeeeee!" Alexis laughs loudly causing me to shake my head and make a weird face because she called me by my real name instead of my nickname 'Jc' like everyone calls me. 

"Shush." I put my hand on her face while pulling in the drive way. "I will not shush, Justin!" 

"Stop calling me Justin." I stuck my tongue out at her, "Well Justin is your name. Sooo." She's such a smart ass. I got out of my car, walking towards the door behind her. 

"Well, I don't really like the name Justin." I shrugged, sitting on the couch beside her. 

It was the truth, I honestly don't like the name 'Justin' as much so, I named myself 'Jc' and liked that name way better and when people call me Justin, I usually get pissed off and angry at them for calling me a name that I don't want to be called. But Alexis? It sounded kind of cute when she called me Justin. 

"I used to LOVE the name Justin, until I dated a Justin and he was the biggest dick. I hated him and he used to talk crap about me but in my face, he'll be like 'no, I like you!' yea fucking right. So basically because of my jerk exes, I have trust issues because, I got used for the most part." She explained and I shook my head. 

"Even though I'm a bad ass, I treat you way better." I smirked, ruffling up my hair a bit. 

"Oh, you think you can treat me better? That's what they all say." She smiled at me, running her hand through my messed up hair. 

"Oh, I know I can treat you better." I winked.  

"So, Caylen. Why don't it prove it to me?" She smirked right back.