Forever Is A Long Time (Beau Brooks Fanfic)

Forgetting

It's been a week since all the boys went home. I hadn't been the same. I didn't even say a proper goodbye to Beau. All i could think about was Beau. All the boys had followed me on twitter and Beau had unfollowed me. I unfollowed him back. My fan account had turned into a normal personal account. I hated everything i stood for. I had barely ate and jjust stayed in my room. My mum thinks its because i miss Beau, but she doesnt know how complicated it is and im not going to tell her that would be stupid. It's mine and Beau's business. Holly would come over everyday to see if im okay and hug me better but, it was nothing like Beau's hugs and she even said my hugs arent like Jai's. School starts tomorrow and i'm physically not ready. Everyone knew about mine and Beau's little weird thing because of the fans saying stuff. I couldn't fangirl like a normal Janoskianator, nothing ever felt the same again. I hated it so much. It caused me so much pain. I still had Beau's number but we never texted. Jai texted me still everyday. Luke was texting me and so was Daniel. We tweeted each other a few times. 

I heard Beau was back with Kristina. That hurt me the most. 

The next morning i was up at 7am for school. I texted Amy and Holly and i was meeting them outside school. I got ready and headed to school I saw Amy. "Hey, i havent seen you all holiday! I can't believe you and Holly didn't tell me what happened, i had to hear about it on twitter. You know the whole fandom hates you" she said.

"I'm sorry ive just been upset about it." I said.

"What happened with you and Beau?" she said.

"He just needed to be with Kristina and i can't be the one to stand in the way of that. I shoudn't be stealer" i said, getting upset.

"Oh im sorry. I wish i had met Luke. I wish you would of told me! I love Luke and you didnt even tell me! Holly is happy but also sad because she misses Jai, but they dont know when there going to see each other again" she said 

"Yeah" i said blunt. At that point i saw Holly and she hugged me.

I got into my first class, my teacher Mrs Burns was in such a good mood today. I hated that so much, seeing her happy and me so upset. I felt like everyone was looking at me.

"We are having a class holiday! All the money goes to charity. The trip is to Los Angeles!" Mrs burns said. A trip to Los Angeles. I dont need that, before i would jump at the chance to go to Los Angeles. At lunch i was asked multiply times if i shagged Beau. I just walked away from all of it, and at the end of the day i just walked home without anyone. 

That night i was on the phone to Luke and we were talking about Los Angeles and the trip.

"You should come" Luke said 

"I know, The school are only letting us go because they want money for the school, because there selfish, and dont really care where we go to be honest." I said laughing

"Well come then, please! You can come see me, Jai, James, Daniel and Beau. Would Holly be coming?" he said.

"Yeah Holly would be coming, because its for the 3 age groups. Amy, me and Holly would come." i said.

"I won't tell Beau." he said laughing.

"If you want" i said quickly.

After we got off the phone. Holly and Amy texted me 

"Hey, im going to the school trip? are you? Im handing in my money tomorrow! Cant wait to get away from shitting London." Amy texted me.

"I think ill come" I texted back.

"Oh my go im so going to the school trip! I'm so excited! Roll on Los Angeles in 4 months! (:" Holly sent me.

The next morning i went downstairs and told my parents about it, and they said yes and handed me a check to give in to the school. Finally i get to see Los Angeles! No more guys, just beautiful city and gorgeous beaches and perfection everywhere.

In school that day. Lewis came up to me "Hey, i heard about everything, and im really sorry about it, i know you really loved that guy. You have been a janoskianator for longer than i can remember." he said smiling.

"Yeah thanks, so are you going on the school trip?" i asked politely.

"Oh yeah i am. I can't wait. Los Angeles is a gorgeous place," he said smiling.

"Yeah, im going too." I smile and walk off. I hated that guy more than you know, but i don't know. i guess im glad i was nice to his. he didnt deserve me being a bitch to him, he didnt do anything wrong.