I love him

9

I am hooked again as I found myself taking fifty dollars from my bag and handing it to Jordan secretly feeling up on his back hand just for my own pleasure.

"I love you man, you are always there for me" he said smiling and I couldn't fathom what he just said.

He loves me.
He loves me.
He loves me.
He only loves you cause you gave him money it's not you he loves it's the money.

I hated that part of my brain that little voice that came around to rain on my parade

"Its nothing you needed it and I had it" I said smiling hard to tarnish the nagging voice in my head.

Bethany left me at the bar cause the dumb bitch went to retouch her makeup...I'm thinking that she has a thing for one of these chubby guys sitting at the bar.

But I couldn't careless all I could care about was the hunk in the distance talking to a customer laughing and looking all godly.

I need to take days off of work cause at this point in my life I'm so close to confessing my feelings to a straight guy.

I need to get away for a while.

"Check this out Michael" said Jordan laughing at something that was on his phone, standing next to me he showed me a video of a drunk guy stumbling around.

I didn't find it amusing but still forced myself to laugh.

Guys are soo stupid they laugh at anything that does not make sense.

"This guy is stupid" he laughed and I froze when he placed his hand onto my thigh occasionally grabbing it hard as he laughed.

At the moment I was in heaven as I faked the best laugh of the century.

But like all my minutes in heaven hell would always find me as the pimple face bitch came back with a poor job on the foundation or concealer or what not.

It was no longer the two of us but the now the three as the two laughed at the video I enjoyed the warm hand on my thigh.