Ugh, Life

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^^ me coming back to wattpad after months of being inactive

what's up, sluts
im back because wattpad thought id be cute to change the logo and shit and i #hateit

but anyway hi how are you im nostalgic
why you may ask
because i was looking through old messages, this book, fan fics and thinking about the fun times i had on here and how many people i met and how i miss them so fucking much

bro i almost criED

like im so grateful for what i have you know like i have so many friends, a beautiful girlfriend, gone out so many times, traveled, but i just miss so many people and events

i miss when wattpad was the only social media i used, i miss texting my online friends the second i got the chance, i miss checking to see if my favourite stories were updated, i miss staying up until 5am just reading

it wasn't too long ago but it was so different

now i have instagram and twitter and post terrible memes. i only have like two online friends (who are great i love them), im always stressed, i can't read as well, and im always tired

this is messy and probably doesn't make sense because its 1am but i was just looking back on 2017 through early 2018 and things have changed. a lot. i just really miss it and my eyes are watering because fuck you know?

i just needed to get it out because you have to let things go
just like these memories
i like to listen to that green gentleman because of that one lyric

“things have changed for me, and that's okay”

so yeah, that's not really what's going on in my life but if you really want to know which idk why you would, its nothing special. im on break, school sucks ass so thats nice. im gonna go to my friends tomorrow. i got that yubo app to make more internet friends because well yeah and its not working. depression is fat and i hate myself. i have thought about suicide a dangerous amount. i miss my old internet friends more than anything like i just said but like ive never missed anyone so badly. i play fortnite too much. i kinda have a different taste in music. like i still like rock and alternative but ive been more open minded about music. except country. i hate country. always have, always will. been fucking with troye sivan and arctic monkeys though. and yeah that's it pretty much it. its kinda boring though. its the same thing everyday ya know.

sorry this was kinda all over the place but like i said i needed to get it out.

so like yeah that's it, br o
stay swaggy and as always

stay alive |-/🖤