Within The Campus

Chapter Two

The Second Encounter...

A week passed by and the thought of that influential stranger kept coming to my mind in an on and off manner.

I continued reading and doing my things the usual way in our departmental library. One morning, to my surprise, i just saw my sweet fear staring me in the face, it was her again dressing in a multicolored Atampa with blue veil, her alluring beauty still so attractive... she got seated vertically towards my direction, i said to myself "Oh Lord" what is this girl doing in our departmental library? Why did she left her usual library and her acclaimed permanent seat?" Knowing that an answer would not come from no where, i decided to continue reading my book but it was just an unavailing effort because i still couldn't read, i was so eager to have a look at the beauty again, the beauty that keeps endearing her to me.

I started to fix my eyes on her, looking and observing her structure calmly. It was at that moment that i received a text from a course mate that a lecture was fixed and the lecturer was already in class, seeing that text left me with no option but to go to the class and to do that i have to pass that sweet stranger, i started to set pace on my way out only for that girl to say "Good Morning Sir! We have finally meet again"

I don't think we have ever met, i replied with an uncomfortable voice. She smiled and said perhaps we did, in law library when you deprived me of my permanent seat... Then i smiled back and said allow me to resign myself please because lecture is currently going on in class, i just received a text.

"Oh OK receive the lecture well dear so that you make me proud" she said

I wanted to say make you proud? Who are you to me that i shall make you proud but the uncomfortable feeling within me coupled with the urge to go for the lecture that was currently holding on then didn't allow me, so i hastened out of the library and rushed to the lecture hall.

As i was on my way, i was just thinking of what just happened between me and her, i was thinking of it and helplessly smiling because deep inside me I'd feel like a terrible liar if i say i didn't enjoyed and appreciated the fact that she talked to me.

Who is she? What may be her name? Did she notice any sign that she do have effects on me? Why and how was she having the courage to talk to me freely? Am i that approachable? Wasn't i bad for rejecting her polite request in the first place?

Perhaps i was and i think i owe her an apology which i shall definitely do the next time i meet her although i pray not to meet her again because my study was still a priority to me and with her unusual influence on me, i think getting close to her may make me loose focus and thereby miss it all.

I couldn't even notice fully the events i passedby as i was heading to the lecture hall because i was so engrossed in her thoughts. As i entered the class, the moment i settled myself down the thought of her turned on again, all that i did in class during that lecture was thinking of her and her attitudes towards me, her alluring smile was all i could remember. I love the feeling, truly and deeply love the feeling but only then a feeling of uneasiness consumed me.

How can i be so unserious in class? Am i loosing it all already? Isn't this what i considered to be rubbish and attributed only to people that lack focus in life? Series of conflicting questions kept on popping in my head.

I finally decided that nothing shall make me have a divided attention in class again and i shall with all force thwart and revoke anything, whatsoever that wants to stand in my way and barricades achievement of my goal....

Unfortunately for me, the battle between rationality and emotion isn't an easy battle and in many instances emotion do overpowers rationality...
So it was, because what i resort to fighting it off me, was on again, beclouding my mind thoroughly when i was about to sleep. her thought, the thought of that stranger whose memories got me lost composure was on again, to reject that fact that i was attracted to that girl was an uphill task for me because it was indeed an attraction that was so strong, pulling like a magnetic pull.

It then dawned on me that i have to wage a war against myself, against my heart desire, against my emotions lest I'd be in a position i never even for once thought i could be but what remains a misery to me was how to fight that battle because in everything we do, the "what" is always easy, the "how" is the most daunting challenge.

I finally decided to think of some other things, so i started to think of my academic pursuit till slumber seizes.....