A story about a girl who finds out her mother's deepest darkest secret, and goes to search for he long lost brother while battling depression all before loving Bangtan and life!
" Okay. T-this is it. It's time to stop all of the pain of this world. " My feet were positioned on the metal bar, over the expanding water. My eyes close shut, and I set my phone on the ground. " Or......maybe not." I step down from the bar, grab my phone, and run. My phone starts ringing, and I accept the call with hesitation.
" Song Hana! Where in the world are you!? " My mom's voice rings loudly, threatening to make me go deaf.
" I'm just taking a walk. " I say, defensively. I hear a sigh escape from her, and I tense up.
" Hurry up. You father and I are going out to eat. " She says and I mutter something before hanging up.
" I'm freaking weak. " I mumble, before hailing a taxi to get home. I arrive maybe half an hour later, and the second I open the door, I hear dad yell.
" She's home, Christie. " I walk into the slightly small house and am attacked with endless hugs.
" Okay, okay. I'm home, happy now? " I chuckle, pushing dad away softly. Even though he was my father, I was very distant from him, uncomfortable around him. He nods, as I slowly pry his arms off of me. " I'm sorry for worrying you. It was very wrong of me father. " I say, my voice literally stinging from saying father. I hated calling him that, and I think he loved the fact that I get so uncomfortable saying it.
" It's fine. Now, we have a dinner party to attend. You can always call Abigail from the kitchen to make you food. Now, we're off. Bye, sweetie! " Dad kissed my head, and my mom slickly walks down the stairs. She grabs my dad's hand, glances at me, and sighs.
" Why do you always run away. You, for goodness sake, are a girl of a proper family. This nonsense of running around freely can not be implied. " Her words cut through the air sharply, threatening to make me cry. I nod slowly, holding my tongue so that I don't lash out at my own mother.
" Yes, mother. I'm, once again, very sorry. " She nods, pinches my cheek, and they leave. I sigh, rolling my eyes. They never leave me alone. I trudge upstairs to my room, calling my cousin, Yoora.
" OMG. You haven't called me in 3 weeks. What's up!? " Her loud, excited voice rings in my ears, and I slightly pull the phone away from my ear.
" Calm down before you make me go deaf. " I joke, and I hear her laugh. Her laugh is like honey, sweet, making the person that hears it feel at ease. " I'm actually not fine. My parents went out to eat, again, and now I'm by myself with only the maid, and I just tried to do it again. " I hear her gasp, and I hear a sound of rustling paper in the background. Oh god, here we go again.
" Song Hana! What is wrong with you?! From the accounts of every time you've done this, this is the 7th time you've tried to kill your self. What the heck!? " She sounds genuinely angry at me, and I sigh. A tear rolls down my cheek, and I wipe it away quickly.
" I'm don't know. I don't care. The world is too cruel to live in. How many times have you felt that your parents don't love you!? " I almost scream at her. I take a deep breath and continue. " It's hard, Yoora. I don't fit in. "
" For God's sake please, are you serious?! " She shouts. " I'm gonna lose my favorite cousin of you keep trying to do these kinds of things. Don't you ever think about what I'll feel if you die? " Her voice cracks a little, and I can tell she is crying.
" I'm-I- sorry. I know. I'm being selfish and only thinking about myself. I really love you. Okay. I'm gonna go now. Byeeee. " Before I end the call, I hear her sigh, and I quickly end the call, and then I start crying. I run into the bathroom, and wash my face with freezing cold water. The water goes red, from my nose bleed.
I start sobbing. It's not loud, but instead quiet and muffled. The tears stream down my face endlessly, and I feel like throwing up. I tightly hug myself, rocking back and forth as my eyes become puffier and it become harder to breath
A/N Hello readers. It's JiminStan11. I just wanted to tell you guys that this is my first book on Wattpad. I'll be opening up a question, comments, and concerns email for the story in a few days. Please wait, the Bangtan stuff will be coming in a bit. Thank you again for choosing to read this! JS11
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