Rainbow Eyes

Four

Four

When my eyes opened, I found I was lying down on my bed, Lena’s form sitting next to me. She perked up when she saw me, her hands immediately going to mine. I remembered; Lena had rushed to the bathroom, gripping my arms she asked me what was wrong before blackness took over my vision.

I frowned as the memory of it flashed into my mind, “Mom,” I breathed

“Are you okay, sweetie?” she asked, her eyes in deep concern

I took a breath for a few seconds, digesting the information, before I whispered “You were right,” I paused “but why?”

She began sobbing, her eyes tearing up, “I don’t know” she shook her head twice; she kissed my hand “honey, I don’t want them to. I was supposed to be the one they’d take that night, I was headed there anyways. Maybe we can change their mind?”

I frowned, now angry at her “No” I said, my voice strong, I sat up “don’t be selfish mom”

“What?” she leaned back, her fingers releasing my hand, her eyes were confused

“How could you think like that?” I scolded her “What about Leslie, huh? You’re going to let her suffer not having a mother? And Lloyd! He can’t handle the stress of College mom, he’s not as strong as before dad died. Dad was the source of our strengths, now that he isn’t here; you are our source of it. Knowing that you are alright and safe, we have hope that things would still be better no matter how much life hurts” I paused “You’re not leaving them”

“Honey -”

“This was how it was supposed to be” I didn’t know why I was saying this, but I knew I couldn’t let her just leave Leslie and Lloyd, they needed her “this was planned since I was born. Like destiny”

“No, no, no” she said, kneeling next to me, tucking the hairs on the side of my face behind my ears “you will not use that excuse”

But I cut in, “You believe in destiny mom, I remember you saying so many stories, how you knew fate would guide us and everything, and now mom, this is mine”

“Being taken away from me by a devil isn’t how I planned the rest of your life to be” she said, defensive, sitting back, her hands to herself

“I don’t care” I spat out “you aren’t leaving Leslie and Lloyd”

“And you will?”

“Forget about me,”

“I don’t think so, you are my daughter, and I would do anything to protect you”

I swallowed, closing my eyes, gritting my teeth. It hurt to know the words I was going to say, but I had to, “Not biologically” my eyes were averted when I said them loud and clear

“I don’t care -”

“Well I do!” I yelled; then calmed my voice after seeing her saddened expression “Mom, after I’m gone, you will be as if nothing was wrong, alright? Because nothing is”