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So like i tend to speak alot to random people on the internet bcas like they dun kno me and like owo i can be a cool kid
I just have this weird mindset like they care more about wot i have to say compared to my other peers
It's quite a complex situation like i dont get why i tend to speak more
I guess it's just that i dont care about them bcas like they don't care abut me anyway
So my reputation can go scubadiving
And i guess i formed myself around online frends and like
I felt like they meant more since i could be myself more
Bcas nothing mattered.

Nothing at all.
That was obviously a lie because in the end, I was the one who cared too much about them.
I was the one who also got too attached.
And I've always disliked myself for making it a big deal
For caring
For letting it all matter.
I was weak, and that weakness still resides to me today.

I still tend to feel myself more when talking to onlines.
It hurts almost
That I'm not afraid to lose someone.
It's so stupid and weak of me.
But people say it's just human nature.
It's just human nature to feel sad, happy, satisfied.
Is it human nature no to be able to control my feelings?
That's just plain dumb.
That's just another excuse.
"I can't move on."
Just because you don't want to.
I say you can if you really want to, but then they say it's "feelings" they can't control.
I'd like to think of that weak, but in the end I'll be clowned for belittling them for an apparently human natural feeling.

I care to an extent.
I'm selfish, and I know that.

I guess all this I just said was hella predictable, but since when did I really care about you personally.
Probably since forever.