how I became happy

AN

To all of the people reading this story I'm sorry that I haven't been updating I just don't feel well mentally right now. The song I put up at the top I put there because that is how I'm feeling I just want to give up. All that I wrote in the story is true except getting almost kidnapped. So yes I did get raped when I was around 6. Writing tis story is letting me get all my feelings off my chest but I'm just so tired. I don't want to wake up at all. I'm just tired of life. I want when someone asks me if I'm ok to realize that I'm not. You know how people say you need to thank god that you wake up in the morning well I don't want to wake up. I want to sleep personally. My older sister calls me a slut and tells me to kill myself. The worst part about that is that she know that I tried to kill myself. But she only knows about the major time I tried to kill myself. I tried to kill myself many times. I just want help but I don't know how to ask for it and I don't want to burden anyone. Well that's all I wanted to say to anyone reading this story.