Connection

Prologue

In the mist of feeling alone and sad, my depression was starting to get the best of me.

My eyes were blood shot red from the amount of tears I shed. I contemplated on how much I didn't matter to anyone, how much life would be better off if I weren't around? I often cried my self to sleep but, it didn't matter how many tears I cried. It just wouldn't make me feel any better.

It was 11:00 at night, when the moonlight shined against my window as I cried. "Oh, how I would love to matter to someone, anyone." I thought to myself. I tossed and turned as the tears continued to fall from my weeping eyes.

After a while, I grew exhausted from crying so much. I knew if I stayed like that I wouldn't get any better. So, I got up out of my bed and headed to the bathroom that was connected to my room.

Once I got in the bathroom I switched on the light switch. I turned to the mirror were I saw my heartbreaking expression starting back at me. I thought to myself ", girl you look a hot mess." I immediately started to cleaned up my face and refresh myself. Feeling a little better after my little breakdown, I headed out of the bathroom.

I walked over to my night stand where my HP laptop was charging. Unplugging my laptop, I grabbed it and got back in my bed.

My inner thoughts were racing, I was in need of a change. So I searched the internet looking for a solution.

I realized it was now 12:00 in the morning. I hadn't even noticed an hour had passed by, due to my emotional break down.

To make myself feel better I begin searching the web on my computer. Looking for some type of social site so I could make some friends. I was a bit shy around people, so I figured this was the best way to make some friends.

After searching for 15 minutes, I came across a dating/social site called Fins(think of it as Tinder or Snapchat). I clicked on it and begin creating my profile, I came up with the user name Nelly_love.

I posted a couple of pictures from my camera roll and made a description about myself on the profile.

I made my page all creative and even added some hashtags. Hoping that someone would reach out and take me out of my misery.

#Loner #Caringperson #Student #Finsispoppin

Yes! I'm stepping out of my comfort zone.

I drifted off to sleep feeling confident, yet my anxiety crept back in my head.
Maybe, it was I stupid idea? No one will contact me on my profile. Or, will someone...?