Dear me,
Today, I kinda feel exhausted, yet, I feel satisfied on how my day went.
A while ago, I was asked to share specific skill that I learned in the past few months. And honestly, I was taken aback and took me few seconds to absorb his question.
And so, I told him that I didn't catch his question for me to buy more time so I can dig into my tiny brain on how I can answer him.
But unfortunately, there's nothing comes into my mind, and I asked him if a life skill can suffice to answer the question. And lucky, he nods his head as a response.
And so, I told him that patience is what I learned in the past few months.
Although, I mentioned that on my personal assessment to myself, I believe that I am patient. Like I possess a very long patience in regards with so many things.
But then, I told him that along the way or in the past experiences that I had, there were a lot of moments and people the put me on the edge, slammed and pushed me on the wall, and made me realized that I wasn't patient enough.
I explained and shared some of my thoughts that can relate and be applied on technical perspective.
But I think, while explain things I felt like I step on the gas of my emotions. Coz I remember saying that sometimes we have to be patient with our self coz every day we are a working progress.
And while on my way home, that answer lingers on my mind. And I realized that, yeah, sometimes we really need to be patient with our self.
That we should give self some time to deal with our own emotions and how to control it.
That sometimes, we need understand that we have to go through some process to be able to build, develop and heal ourselves.
That failure and mistakes are in evitable, but we have to learn how to forgive ourselves for that.
That sometimes, answers are not easy to find. And even if we have, sometimes is hard understand.
And so, we need to patient to understand ourselves and everything around us, to give our self some time and not to be too hard to ourselves.
Coz honestly, I believe that everything will make sense at the right time.
We just need to be patient with our self. And everything will be just fine.
Maybe not today, but I know some day it will.
