For how longer will I feel this awful thing? How can I prevent anger from coming out and hurting the ones that I love? How can I keep it all inside without letting it destroy me? Every time I rage alone, I feel this horrible urge to shatter everything around me for several minutes, until I'm finally overwhelmed by sorrow. That shit used to happen everyday. I'm so grateful that it's just once in a while now. But still, how can I tame anger when it makes me forget who I really am? I always try to stop it by holding onto the little sanity I have left in the moment, all in vain. It's mentally exhausting and it only gets me worse. I would do anything to take back the words I let my anger use my mouth to scream. I would do anything to steal the pain from the people to whom I've caused it. I would do anything to keep my rage inside its cage for the rest of my life. Anything.
