Factitious [Jikook]

XXXVIII: Changes

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Jimin's POV

it's been a week since that incident happened and i can tell, that jungkookie is trying his best to fight his tempered. and of course i need to be a little sensitive and cautious ─especially when it comes in interacting, i have a insane possessive boyfriend so i need to be careful in every move or action i make ─especially if he is there and watching my every move.

at first its okay, but as time goes by his possessiveness becomes more and more intense. honestly, it's becoming annoying;  suffocating but of course at the end of the day. i'm still there understanding where it comes from.

a heave sigh left my mouth as i buttoned the last button of my shirt, looking at my own reflection made me frowned. i let jungkookie dictate what i wear and who i can interact to, slowly my freedom to make my own decisions drifting away... But what i gonna do? i love him and i don't want to lose him.

another sigh leave my mouth as I checked my reflection once more, maybe if I will talk to him seriously about this matter ─he'll listen to me. I hope he will.

i tried to pull out a smile but it's so obvious... fake. i want to turn back time and go back to what we were before.

"jiminie, jungkook is here hurry up." my mom shout from downstairs and i couldn't help but to sigh, i should be excited right? but why i didn't feel anything? 

i shook my head to clear up my mind, i should be happy, i should be excited, but even how hard i try to convince myself ーwhy i still feel empty? i still love him, right?

i yelp when i feel a arms wrapping around my waist, he rested his chin on my shoulder as he sway our body, i'm drowning in my own thoughts that i didn't even notice him.

"i knock couple of times but it seems you're in deep thoughts..."

i heard him nibbling on my skin, and before i could even think my body move on its own titling my head to give him more access, i feel a smirk form on his lips as he starts to kissing my neck.

"what are you thinking baby?"

he whispered, his left hand left my waist and roamed around my chest, giving a light pinch on my buds, ah~ a weak moan left my mouth as he go farther.

i can't feel anything, but whenever he touch me i couldn't help but to melt and fall for it. i didn't know myself now, i'm turning to someone that's not me. 

"look at yourself, so beautiful so irresistible."

he mumbled between his kisses, i do what he say i glance at my own reflection. seeing someone, that wasn't me, i trembled in fear that person is not me. that person's eyes only holding lust in his eyes, and that's enough for me to be afraid to my own self.

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"hey, you okay?"

jungkook held the younger's left hand bothered by the younger odd behavior, jimin snap back in reality looking at jungkook with his cute clueless expression.

"something bothering you?"

jungkook added voice full of concern, jimin shook his head, giving the older a assuring smile.

"we promise, no secrets right?"

jungkook persuade, he knows something bothering the younger. maybe jimin didn't notice it, every small details of it. there was a time that he shared his most embarrassing moment to the younger, but instead of fit of laughter he only receive a soft bored ah from the younger ─he brushed it off saying to himself that the latter is maybe tired.

a long heavy sigh left jimin's mouth as soon as those words hit him, he look straight in jungkook's eyes. and now jungkook clearly see everything, the beautiful eyes that only held brightness is now dull, lifeless.

"i'm okay hyung, just ti─"

"no you're not jimin, what's wrong?"

jungkook intervene hold tightened in jimin's hand, it's enough for the younger let out a weak hiss as he tried to free his hand in the older's grip.

"you hurting me hyung..."

he mumbled weak, jungkook immediately free the younger's hand muttering his sorry multiple times.

"it's okay hyung, just don't do it next time..."

there it was again the same sentence, the same statement that keeps on rolling out in the younger's mouth whenever jungkook unintentionally hurt him. it's like a broken type keep on playing and jungkook is tired of hearing it.

"no! it's not okay! nothing is okay here jimin, tell me─"

jungkook paused deliberating if he'll continue it, ‘cause him honestly don't want to know the answer to his own question. he knew something change. with a mouthful gulp he continued.

"do you still love me?"