Decisions

ch.80

12 months later....

A little background on what has happened throughout those months..

Faiths pov:

It has been a whole year. My little boy is 2 months old. The day he was born Billy changed..he changed for the better. He grew to like Tim they actually hung out a few times after Ro was born. Tim was invited to the delivery room the day of Ro's birth and of course all of my family and Billys family and our friends. Everyone waited in the wait room except for Tim Billy and Martina. Those three were with me the whole time. And of course they were in every photo that was taken that day. After I gave birth each person came in two at a time to visit me and Ro. By the way  we call him Ro....short for Ronan. I wanted to name him Andy Tim wanted John and Billy (not knowing Tim had say in the name) wanted Ronny. Then one day at dinner Taylor suggested to me and Billy Ronan and later when tay and I were alone she explained the reason she suggested it. She said it was a combo of all three names chosen by tim billy and myself. I absolutely loved the name amd immediately phoned tim. He agreed with me...it was strong and different. And thats how we chose the name of our sweet boy. -Ronan. Since Billy and Tim became a little closer over the course of the 12 months it was a little easier for me to keep the affair from Billy. Seeing how I was still seeing Tim exclusively. Plus Billy has been super distracted and I hadn't a clue why...could be miley but honestly I didn't care. I still need to figure out a way to tell billy I want a divorce but ive kinda been putting it off. Taylor is moving forward in her career. She is in the mist of topping the charts with her self titled album and her beautiful eyes album. The song beautiful eyes was written for Martina and Luke.  plus Taylor has started creating her new album called Fearless and im the only one who knows that title :)  ..she also knows about me and Tim and shes happy for me. Martina and Luke's children are growing so fast and I occasionally still watch Emma while they have alone time. Shania hangs out with Taylor and Emma is 1 year old. She turns 2 in a month and she will be 5 in 4 years. She loves seeing another baby so ronan and her are perfect for best friends cause they are only a year apart. Tim continues to take me out as 'friends' and comes over on occasion to see Ronan and Billy and Taylor but secretly just getting a glimpse of me ;) ... billy ro and I go over Tim's house on occasion as well. More me and Ronan but billy comes sometimes. Ronan has his own room over at Tim's  since he babysits during the day at times...and since i spend the night there when billy is away. The room is super adorable. Tim got a decorator and I love the room..billy created the baby room in my house and its not as cute but i dont hate it. Each day I have with Ronan is a miracle cause the way I was abused by Billy I could've miscarried and since I lost the twins I've been super cautious not to leave Ronan alone while I'm with him. Not even to pee... his baby carrier sits on my bed which is seen from the toilet. Everyone thinks I'm happy again in the same way I was happy with Aly and Aj but the truth is im happy but not as happy as I could be. Not a day goes by that I don't think about the twins but I put on a good face for everyone else.