The Reids And Me

Chapter 9

After awhile of pulling my thoughts together and going through all my memories i slowly get up from the floor and sit down on the toilet with the lid down of course, i wasn't beating myself up because of the memories.....
I was beating myself up because i told them i freaking told them everything and i didn't even mean to. I just got so angry with him saying my life was perfect that it just spilled out

Ugh there gonna hate me i mean it is all my fault i should have stopped him ages ago but instead i sat back and hoped it would get better but instead he broke and killed our family the man killed his own wife and i could have stopped it, instead i was weak and let him away with it

I was in the bathroom for i don't know how long before the door opened, god dammit i'm never gonna have any privacy with him around with those dam bobby pins

"You would think you would realise that i didn't want to talk to anyone" i say not looking up from the floor

He walks over and kneels down in front of me "You could have told me the full story" he looks into my eyes "I wouldn't have and never will judge you for your past" he says before giving me a hug

"It was my fault though i could have stopped it from happening but i didn't i stand up and now there dead" i whisper forcing my tears to stay back

"You can not blame yourself for what happened, you have no control over how others act, don't blame yourself" he says as he stands up the pulling me up to my feet

I take a deep breath before giving him the best smile i could muster and he gives me a bright one back before pulling me down stairs into the kitchen where he hands me a bowl with brownie, ice cream and whipped cream. I laugh and take the bowl sitting at the bench and enjoying it

"Mmmm, for someone who sucks at cooking this brownie is amazing" i say while eating causing us both to laugh

"Well i actually didn't make that" he says looking behind me, so i turn around to reveal all the boys behind me

"We made them together along with lunch and dinner" Jason says, wait he talked i swear he's barely talked since i got here

"I wanted to apologise for being a jerk so i suggested we make all your favourites" Mason says and i give him a confused look

"Wait how do you know my favorites" i question but they all sorta look down and don't answer "guys how do you know my favourites" i ask again

"We kinda called your brother to ask" Logan says they all look so nervous i just start laughing

"Why do you always laugh at times like this" Colton questions me

"It lightens the mood and you guys all look so cute when your nervous" i say, then i get up and wash my plate down before placing it into the dishwasher

After they apologise a few thousand times, they apparently finally feel better about what happened they also don't ask anymore questions which is helpful. The boys eventually decide there gonna go outside and play soccer for awhile so I tag along just to watch or I thought I could bare watching

I sit on the lawn watching with jayce in my lap, it doesn't take long for me to figure out that they are not a soccer family

"hey Little bud can you jump up for a second I needa teach them how to play" I whisper in jayces ear and he giggles before getting up and taking a seat beside where we were before

I race over to the the ball which logan was attempting to kick across the field and instantly steal it from him, then making my way down to the net that Coltons guarding I dodge past the other boys before making it to the goal and scoring a easy goal, i turn around to see all the boys looking at me really confused