Isolated

Moving In

It's December and the snow is sticking to the ground already. My mom asked me to move in with her, I said as soon as I'm ready, I'll come. I was still sleeping at Jake's and I didn't want to wake up, wishing I was in a coma so I didn't have to face my fears, or worse...leave Jake.

"Hey, Bethany wake up" Jake whispered. "What's wrong?" I asked while waking up from my deep sleep. "My parents want to talk to you" Jake said. "Okay"

I went down the stairs, kinda worried what they were going to say. "Morning Bethany" Jake's mother said. "Morning"

"Bethany, we're going to have to ask you to leave. I'm sorry it's just...well, You found your mom and it's just best if you go" "I see" i replied. "Look honey, I don't want you to leave but I think you should be with your mom"

I really didn't want to leave I just wanted to be with Jake, he made me smile all the time and helped me with everything. But it was probably for the best. "Okay Clare...thank you for everything.

I left before Jake came home from his soccer practice. Packed my things and took a cab to my mom's house, I mean my house. When I got outside from the cab, just looking at the house made me feel loved and hope that this would have a happy ending. I opened the door and went upstairs to my room, I saw that there was a boy's room. "Tom's Room, Keep Out!" Written on the door. Typical teenager I laughed. Then there was, my room.

"Wow, she's been planning my room for quit some time." I said out loud. I found a phone on the desk in my room "Bethany, I know this will have great use for you - from mom" thanks mom, I said in my head. Some guy came out of the car and came to the door so I went to check downstairs.

The door opened and he just looked at me. "Bethany" was all he said. "Hi dad"

I just knew the second I saw him...he was my dad. "I...sorry I don't know what to say, can I at least give you a hug? Not to weird" he joked. "No not to weird" i laughed.

"Just as beautiful as I remembered" he said while I smiled. "How are you" my dad said. "I'm alright, just getting used to everything."

"So, where's your mom?" He asked. "I think she's at work, she didn't really say. I came home a few minutes ago." "Okay well maybe we can go bond together or we can go to the mall if you want" when he asked me to bond with him my memory flashed back when I was little playing with my brother outside with my dad, but I had to say no because....my trust to anyone just wasn't there.

"Dad I'm sorry, I kinda just want to settle down for a bit" I said with sadness and I felt bad. "It's okay, I got to go upstairs and work on Something so we can go another time" I can tell how depressed he was when I said no.

So I went to the park and just sat on the bench for hours. Thinking of Jake, my mom, dad, brother, and.....home. Finally it was 7:00pm and mom had called my cell.

"Hey Hun I see you saw your phone" "yea I did, thanks mom" I said.

"Can you come home I want to introduce your brother to you because you probably don't remember him" she laughed. "Sure mom on my way"

When I left the park I kept having visions of seeing ray abusing me. So I just kept walking fast till I got home. When I walked in I saw a boy who looked like Jakes friend. What was his name again? oh yea Tom. "Bethany honey this is your brother Tom." When mom said he was my brother I flipped out inside me.

"Wow mom I believe we have already met before." Tom said. "Really when?" mom asked. "When she was with her boyfriend" he said. "Jake is not my boyfriend Tom" right when I said that I walked upstairs to my room because I had nothing else to say to him. From my eyes, he looked like a difficult person.

Tom came to my room after I left from downstairs. "Did you know" I asked. "Not really, I mean they told me about you..." "so I guess we should start getting along" I said. "So we cool?" Tom asked. "Yea were good" I said.

Tom left my room and then my dad came in. "Hey" dad said. "Hi" I said back" "you okay?" "Yeah I'm fine, look I'm kinda tiered can we talk about this tomorrow?" I asked. "Sure goodnight sweetheart" my dad said while he kissed me goodnight.

When he left the room, my mom came in.

"Hey Bethany can we talk?" "Sure" I said. "So your brother is in school and your first day starts tomorrow." "Wait What? School, but I....I don't wanna go" I said. "Look you'll be fine and if anything happens you can always call me" my mom said with love. "Okay I'll give it a try.

So I slept that night till morning I woke up at 7:00am, I went to my bus stop and I noticed a boy there. Looked like Jake, but I couldn't tell if it was really him. So I walked over. "Jake" I said out loud. "Hi Bethany" Jake said in a sad voice. "Something wrong?" I said. "Nothing, bus is here I gatta go" Jake left and I couldn't tell what was wrong. I still feel isolated inside myself.

Forget it I said I'm not going to school. I went to the park and sat in the snow, thinking of my last memory to try and understand who I was. A car came close to me while driving.

"Bethany!" my dad yelled. I ran to the car. "what are you doing? aren't you supposed to be at school?" my dad asked. "yeah" after that he drove me home. "Take your jacket off and go upstairs" he said while I cried going up the stairs.

"Hey I'm not mad Bethy" he said. "Bethy?" I said.

"Nickname, your grandpa gave you that name" "then Bethy it is" I said. "Don't worrie about school I'll talk to your mom and the school" "okay....dad" finally I went upstairs. When mom came home, I had to tell her something important. I went downstairs.

"Mom" I said. "Hey how you feeling?" mom asked. "Look I don't wanna go to school, I can't." I said.

"Why?" my mom said. "I'm just not ready, It would be my last year of school....I don't know I guess I'm still a little freaked out." I said.

"Just try it I promise its not that bad." My mom said. "Alright fine, I'll start tomorrow.....wait can I talk to Jake, something's wrong he won't talk to me?" "sure go" mom said.

So when I left I took my bike with me. And then Jake's house.