My cry for help

The painful truth

Jordan was abused at daycare by someone my mother thought she could trust , someone who's job was to protect him had hurt him in a way That could kill him . His condition is known as " shaken baby syndrome " it's when a baby is shaken violently over and over again . His daycare teacher had gotten annoyed with his crying and shook him and than shoved his pacifier in his mouth when he didn't stop crying she than slammed him into the playpen , she stated how she hated him because all he did was cry .

My mother was called into the school . They had told her Jordan wasn't breathing and was unresponsive basically when she arrived he looked dead . They was than rushed to the hospital where we had found all of this out , we was told that he had probably been abused more than once he had broken ribs and blood in his brain . At the time nobody knew what and how this happend ofcourse the doctors first thought was he had to have been abused at home. Who would want to hurt an innocent baby ? How could anyone have the guts to do something like this ?!

I asked myself how could god let this happen , if he was real why didn't he stop this from happening . At this point I had lost faith in god I felt like I was incomplete , like if everything was taken out of me and I was just a body no reason for living , no purpose of breathing . I wanted to scream and cry and blame god for not being there when Jordan needed him the most . When we needed him the most !

Even though I lost faith I still prayed to god begging him to make things better to save my brother I felt like he owed us that