I was alone even though I was surrounded by people. I left everything, my family, friends and soulmate. Was it really for the best or did I diserve all the hurt he was giving me, I should have just endured it. I knew what I was doing and I knew that it really was for the best, he deserved someone who was much better than me.
As I looked around I noticed everyone running and I didn't understand why. Maybe it was because a vampire was on their territory, after all I knew I was breaking the rules.
"Catrina, hey. I haven't seen you in so long. What brings you to me?" I looked up and saw Alpha Thom. He saw my expression and hurried me into his office and before the door was even shut I was in tears. I couldn't hold myself together and I couldn't hide anything from him. Despite vampires and werewolves supposedly being enemies, he was practically my best friend. I would always go to him in any time of need.
I collapsed on the sofa and cried for what must have been hours. I was exhausted but I knew that all of this was my choice. I only wanted to protect him but I lost him instead. Why do I have to puch every one away?
"What happened? I know you only come here when you don't want to be found, who are you hiding from this time?" He cautiously approached me after being silent through the whole break down. He then stopped dead in his tracks. "Please tell me that isn't a mark Catrina, your asking for a whole lot of trouble when he finds you."
"He won't find me, he's only been changed for a couple of days and he doesn't have any of the senses yet. Your smell covers mine anyway." I glanced up with my matter of fact comment. I didn't want to put him in any danger but I had nowhere else I knew I would be safe. "He doesn't even know werewolves exist. He won't be able to find me its okay." He looked at me dubiously while I tried to reassure him.
"Well we are having a party tonight and seeing that you know most of the people here, you are more than welcome to attend." I started to shake my head but all he said was, "It will take your mind off of everything that has happened. You might even have fun. And my Mum won't take no for an answer, you know that." With that statement he left me in his office. I knew he had problems so he had to go and sort them but I couldn't help but feel even more alone. I wanted some company but I knew that no matter how many people I was surrounded by, it would never be the company that my heart really wanted. I needed him.
* 2 hours later *
I had fallen asleep on the sofa aqnd I could tell from the crick in my neck. It killed. A warm hand was shaking my shoulders and I knew instantly that it was Thom. My best friend smelt better than all of your favourite scents mixed together. He was heavenly.
"Come on Catrina, you have to wake up, my Mums here to help you get ready. Come on!" And before I knew it I was being thrown over a shoulder. So much for being given time to wake up.
"Put me down and I will do anything you want okay. I will go to the party, please, you just have to help me." Thom looked down at me after placing me back down on the sofa and he looked so sad. "Please help?" I knew at that point I had his help because I had never looked so vulnerable and this affected him more than I knew. When he looked back at me I could tell, this was his mission, to protect me. "Do you have a mate yet? Because I want to meet her if you do." He looked down at me with sad eyes and I knew that he hadn't had that cahnce yet. It was tearing him apart.
"I can't find her anywhere. I have been all over, is there something wrong with me?" He teared up and he was no longer 'the big bad Alpha', he was scared and alone. He needed help just as much as me.
"We will find her. I am not going to let you give up and start doubting yourself. You are amazing and I know that she is out there, she is waiting to be found just as much as you are. She will love you." I looked him dead in the eyes and knew that this was true no one could not love him.
"I will help you but you have to consider what you are doing." And with that his Mum whisked me out of the room.
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