My Pain Laughs in the Face of Yours

Chapter Four

Newt's POV:

Everyone was waiting for Tommy to wake up. We had gotten to the hospital right on time. Now we were waiting. It was clustered but we were to worried to care.

I hear pounding feet on the floor and look up to see Tommy. He looked so scared. He was stumbling around and it looked like he was having a hard time concentrating on his sight.

Everyone had gotten up and Scott caught Thomas.

Thomas looked up and recognized Scott. He looked panicked. I couldn't understand why. He started stuttering and shouted,"He's back! H-he's back!"

"Who Stiles?" Scott asked confused.

Thomas gripped onto Scott shirt and yelled,"The nogitsune. He came back! I don't know how! I-I can't go through that again!"

He looked so broken and I could feel everyone's worry. Out of no where he turned around and punched something in the face.

We all gasped when what I am guessing is the nogitsune appeared. The nogitsune was to busy taunting Thomas to realize we can see him and we were to shocked to move.

"Shtilesh. They won't believe you. They all don't know you like they ushed to. They will put you in Eichen Houshe where you belong. Because your crazy. You have killed many people. Sho many people. You make yourshelf believe they are bad people. But everyone knows your a murderer. A killer.

Just wait Shtilesh. We will kill them. Everyone you care about. Everyone who you have ever loved. We will kill them all!"

Thomas was crying and choked out a shout,"No! Shut up!"

The nogitsune got closer to him and a bear trap came out of no where and snapped on Thomas's foot.

He screamed and fell to the floor. The nogitsune had already locked the doors so no one could come into this hallway.

The nogitsune got into a sobbing Thomas's face and taunted,"I have a new riddle for you Shtilesh. If I have it, I don't share it. If I share it, I don't have it. What is it?"

Tommy cried,"A secret." He had now totally forgotten about everyone watching including myself. We were so shocked we couldn't move.

The nogitsune grinned and cheered,"Wow, you have been doing your homework. Lets see if you can figure out this one. Whatsh greater than god and more evil than the devil. Rich people want it, poor people have it. And if you eat it, you'll die?"

Tommy started crying harder and whimpered,"I don't know."

The nogitsune got in his face and screamed,"What is it!?"

Stiles shook his head and cried,"I don't know!"

The nogitsune was angry and grabbed the chain connected to Thomas's foot. He started dragging a screaming Thomas down the hallway and thats when I came out of my shock. I grabbed a knife from my pocket and surprised the nogitsune by running towards it and stabbing it in the neck.

It withered in pain and black blood started pouring out. It finally fell to the ground and I look over to a crying Thomas. He tried to take the bear trap off but ended up crying out in pain.

I rushed over and pulled him so that his back was to my chest and my arms wrapped around him. He cried and held tightly onto my arms. I comforted him and everyone came over to us.

Some of them picked up the body and quickly through it into a garbage can. I would have laughed if I wasn't so worried.

Everyone now gathered around some of them were telling Thomas it would hurt and he held tighter on my arm. When they were pulling it apart Thomas tried holding in his scream but it only lasted a second then he screamed in pain.

It made my heart ache when I heard the pain in his scream. They finally got it off of him and he just turned onto his side and wrapped his arms around my torso.

He was crying and turned his head so it was buried into my side.

He was crying and whimpering,"I shouldn't have killed all of those people. I am a murderer. I shouldn't have thought I could be a hero to anyone. I am just the spastic teenager everyone is annoyed with. I want to be okay again. I am not a hero. Why can't anything be easy."

Everyone around me looked at him heartbroken and I soothed,"No Tommy. You don't understand. We all need you. You are a hero. You don't know how many lives you have saved. You saved me Thomas. You don't know how happy I am I met you. You might have killed those people but you did it for a good reason. You did what you thought was right by killing the bad people. People might have died but you don't understand that you have saved more lives then you have killed. I can say as a person you have saved that you are hero. Life just decided there had to be a person who carried such burdens. We can't imagine how much you have been through in the past year."

Tommy was shaking and sobbed,"You don't know how scared I am. I am scared to live Newt. What if I hurt someone I love. I always am scared of how my past will come and bite me in the butt. There is just so much I can handle. The nogitsune made it impossible to sleep ever again or think straight ever since it taunted me. Being in the maze made me realize that not only can supernatural affect your life but there are humans that can cause so much more damage.

Then my fiancee died and I only proposed to her 5 minutes before she was shot right in front of my eyes. Every breath is getting closer to a panic attack and I can't ever relax without having my guns on me and even then I feel like if I let my guard down everything will fall apart. Newt. Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I wasn't going through all this stuff. I can't see anything though.

I just don't want to be scared anymore. I don't want to cry at night anymore. I don't want to feel like everyones going to leave me when they fnd out what I have done."

I sniffle and noticed everyone crying to. There was understanding, remorse, pain, and sympathy rested in their eyes.

I stroke my fingers through Thomas's hair and sooth,"I wouldn't change anything Tommy. I wouldn't change being put in the maze. Not having met you. Not having followed you everywhere. Hell I would bloody do it again. I don't wish you weren't feeling this pain. I don't wish you didn't go through all this. Because if you think about it. You are stronger than everyone I have ever met. You are the most funny, honourable, hard working, eager, stubborn, focused man I have ever met.

The fact you are still sitting here alive with me right now just shows that you can do anything. And I would go through the maze again if it meant I could see you so determined to save everyone. I wouldn't change anything because I loved you before and I still love you now because you are Tommy. My Tommy."

Thomas tensed but held me tighter and sniffled,"I love you to Newt. So much."

After that he was out like a light. I stroked my hand through his hair and told them to bandage his foot. They did and we set him in his hospital bed. Before I left I saw something connected to the back of Tommy's neck. Curiously I pull the small ball from the back of his neck. And read the letters 'TV'.

I walked out into the hall and realised surprisingly there was a tv. Everyone stopped there hushed whispers and watched me curiously. I looked at the back of the tv and found a spot. I put the ball there and the tv showed Thomas's face.

I gasped and exclaim,"What the hell?"