I'm His Roommate [Bxb]

Chapter 40

"I..I...I'm feeling so confident so great about myself and then it's just completely shattered,by one thing,by something so stupid but then you make me feel crazy,you make feel like it was my Fault,I was in pain"

The words left me in this Room that so Quite,Being Broken hearted was never easy and that's unfair

I can't be worse right?I shouldn't be

I lied to myself that everything's gonna be okay everything's gonna be just fine when i woke up,Then I woke up another morning,Wala ka na,Akala ko ba hindi ka mawawala?

So why?

I said I'd do anything just to make you stay but then...

You've Run? Why?

I kept on talking to myself and it makes me really crazy the felt of ny heart aching..

I can't breathe,it hurts so much,it hurts,i fucking Hate myself .

I'm lonely...

I dialed Tyler's Number and Hoping he would pick it up

He did

"Jean?,I'm So sorry" He said

I was silent for a moment before i replied bearing the tears not to fall

"Maybe i wasn't good enough?" I replied

"No Jean...." He replied

"Maybe,Yes?" I replied and then my tears starts falling down

"No.. " He replied

"M...ma..maybe.. Y...yes?" I replied

"No Jean,You're wrong" He replied

"No Tyler,I'm not Wrong! I'm not good enough " I said..

"Please Calm down jean" He said
 
"No..no...no..I can't,It hurts Tyler,It Fucking Hurt So Bad i want to end myself" I said

"Jean Please Calm down,let me explain"he said but i cutted him off

"There's no need to explain Tyler,malinaw na sakin ang Lahat,

It's Over,We're Done,There are no Us anymore"

"Hindi ba tama ako?" I replied

"Jean please listen!"he replied

"I love you Tyler,I just want to hear your voice just one more time and that's all i need"

My tears won't stop and the sadness was resonating in my voice

"Jean I did everything for us!,it was for our own good!" He replied

"Yes, i understand tyler I'm Hunging up Bye"..

" No jean let me explai---"

*beeep*

We we're excited about how tomorrow will just be bright for us

Then i realized

You don't wanna feel tomorrow

That's the plan right?you're not going to feel our tomorrow

It hurt so bad i can't breathe,I can't,I can't do words,I can't