Teach me love

Part 10: Sad again

I woke up the next morning in his arms. I loved waking up this way. In the arms of the man I had so many feelings for.

My eyes fluttered and I sat up, rubbing the tired out of them. "Y/N..." his sleepy and husky voice croaked out from behind me.

I turned and fell down onto him again "yes..?" He smiled and touched my cheek with his palm "you're so beautiful.."

I smiled back, even wider than him. Anybody could call me beautiful and I'd only be slightly happy but.. hearing it from him.. it was something else.

I ate a lot of food that morning and Namjoon watched with one of his closed palms propping up his head.

He touched my stomach and smiled more "you've actually got some meat in there.. I'm so proud of you baby.."

normally, hearing that I was getting bigger from someone else would destroy me. However hearing that from him right now was so exiting. I was getting better.

I went to school with a big grin on my face. I couldn't help it. I was so happy.

My hair up in a high pony tail and my clothes colorful and cute.

Just then Jungkook tapped my shoulder. I smiled to him "hey I'm sorry for just leaving. When he took you to his room we knew he was mad and felt it would be better if we just left."

I blinked a couple times "you really left that early..? When we where done he said he was going to tell you guys to leave.."

He chuckled "yeah.. we didn't want to stay and listen in on your conversation so we left."

I mentally cursed myself. I didn't have to be as quiet as I thought.

"It's okay Jungkook I went to bed afterwards anyways." He nodded "let's go to class."

I really was getting better. I could still feel my anxiety clearly but it wasn't as bad as normal.

I even put up my hand to ask and answer questions even though I could just ask him when we got home.

~

There we where again. He was laying on the couch and I was laying on him.

My legs where hugged against his torso and my head was lain comfortably on his chest. I laughed at something on the T.V and he laughed back

"your laugh is so cute.." I blushed and kissed his nose.

He laughed again and held my cheeks, pulling me in for a real kiss. Just then to our dismay someone knocked on the door.

I moved my leg so he could get up and I sat waiting for him to come back to me, missing his warmth already.

Just as he opened the door I saw his body stiffen. "J-Jin?? Why are you here so early?!"

I heard my brothers voice chuckle from the other side of the door. I panicked.

I was only wearing a pair of panties and one of his dress shirts without a bra. "Come on I miss my sister.."

suddenly he pushed the door open and he stopped when he saw me "what the fuck?!"

I stood up "I..I can explain!" He looked to Namjoon, a piercing angry glare in his eyes.

"Can you explain to me why the fuck my sister is on your couch wearing nothing but underwear and your shirt?!" Namjoon gulped.

We really didn't expect him to be home this early. "Y/N. You're grounded. And you, I don't want to see you near her ever again." He grabbed my arm but I refused "no! You can't do this to me Jin I'm 18!" He scoffed.

"You're fucking your teacher Y/N! This is against the rules!!! I'm not reporting it because I want you to stay in school where I can watch you but other than school hours you are never to see him again."

I began to cry. "Please don't do this to me.." he scoffed again and continued to pull me away.

~

It's been about two months since that day. I have completely went back to who I was before.

I never eat, I'm depressed, my anxiety is through the roof. I barely leave my room. I'm going to be graduating soon.

I don't even wanna be here if I can't have him. He was saving me. Jin is killing me dead. He's become worried again.

Confused of why I went back to who I was before since I was getting better. Finally he had enough and he stormed in, worried tears in his eyes.

"Y/N.. what happened.. why did you go back?!" He yelled out. I scoffed and laughed a little bit.

"You wanna know why I'm like this..?" I paused "it's because of you."

I could feel the hurt radiating off of his entire body. "W-What..?" I continued to stare out the window.

"Just leave me alone.."

~

All I've been doing is laying on my bed doing nothing. I haven't even gone to school.

All I want is him. No I needed him. I just wanted him back. He became my everything in such little time.

All I wanted was to feel his arms around me again, his lips placing butterfly kisses all around my face and the sound of his breathing when he slept soundly next to me.

I missed it. I missed him. So bad it hurt. As I thought about it tears began to pour from my eyes and onto my pillow.

In my head I cried and begged Jin to let me be with him. He doesn't even know how I feel about him.

He doesn't know that I love him. He wouldn't believe me if I told him.

He'd say I'm being delusional and he took advantage of me when that's just not true. He doesn't know anything.

That's when I got an idea. When I graduate.. I'll talk to Namjoon.. we'll beg Jin to accept it together! We can do it!! We have to..