Never Turn back ANIKA

Part 28: TEARS OF GUILT.

anika opened her eyes, soon after her eyes searched for shivaay and she spotted him near the balcony having a coffee mug beside him which clearly told that he didn't sleep for the whole night. guilt started to hit her from all the direction. even though there's no courage left in her to have a chat with him and clear the clouds, she still wanted to give a try. she cleared her throat and found no response from shivaay. this time she called his name.

"sh..shivaay" - she called him in a very low tone maybe because of her weakness or because of the guilt.

he slightly tilted his head and refused to face her. she again called her, where he took a deep breath and said: "go and get ready we are going back" in a stern tone. in the span of 2 months, she never heard his voice in this tone. for a while, she became shocked. he came back to the room and packed her stuff, where she kept on staring him.

"where is Shreya's passport?" - shivaay asked her in the same tone without meeting her eyes while walking, which shook anika to an extent. how does he get to know about Shreya?  she mentally thought.

"what?" - she again asked him just to assure the question.

"I asked about her passport" - he asked her by meeting her eyes where anika tend to feel the anger in his eyes in just one glance. anika pointed her finger towards her handbag where he went and gave that in her hands where she opened it and gave her passport. shivaay just pulled it from her hands. anika was shocked by his actions.

"where's yours?" - he asked her in a bit high tone. by watching him she took her passport from her bag and gave it to him. he again pulled it from her hand.

"Okay, get ready ... and no need to wake her up... we are leaving to our guest house" - he said in the same tone, this time tears started to flow from her eyes. shivaay noticed that where his hands went to wipe it off but he stopped, anika noticed that and wiped it in her own hands. anika kept her feet on the ground and stood up but soon thuds back in weakness. shivaay ran towards her and about to hold her but he held back. anika intentionally held his hand and stood up but he didn't refuse it. instead, he helped her go to the washroom and passed the towel to her where she wiped her face and shivaay picked up the sleeping Shreya in one hand and held their suitcase in another hand and moved out of the room without looking at anika. 

anika merely followed him and the trio went to their guest house and shivaay protectively placed her on the bed and covered her with the duvet. on seeing her before his eyes, he can't able to believe his eyes, tears are running out from his eyes but he controlled. anika kept his hands on his shoulder but he jerked it off.

"don't ..." - he shouted at anika suddenly. anika jerked in shock where Shreya jerked in sleep. shivaay noticed that, dragged anika to outside and confronted her.

"shivaay, its hurting" - anika shouted where he released her hand and stared her with the bloodshot eyes.

"I need to say that, it's hurting... how can you do this to me anika? can't you see it necessary to discuss with me before taking any decisions on your own? - shivaay asked her with the teary eyes where anika remain speechless and stunned for a while.

"I am your bloody husband dammit and you're pregnant with my child" -  he shouted at his high pitch and shook her shoulders in frustration and turned that side.

"sh.. shivaay..." - anika stammered in shock.

"stop it anika... just stop it" - he yelled...

"today I will speak and you should listen to me" - he said.

"ok, tell me what made you take this decision of leaving me" - he asked where she remained speechless.

"Shreya??...(he signed in disbelief) then tell me what did I say when I told you you're pregnant... Shreya is back right... then how did you believe that I won't accept her... tell me ..." - he asked her with the bloodshot eyes.

"I'm...so..sorry" - anika managed to reply with the teary eyes.

"sorry (he signed disbelief)... do you think that 5 letter word will heal the wound which was created by you... anika you not only decided to leave me... you decided to leave my love ... you decided to separate the father from their children... do you think you're even worth to say sorry? you have broken my trust into pieces... and I will never forgive you for that" - shivaay said in frustration and leave the crying anika alone.

"how can you misjudge him? he will never forgive you anika? you grave a very big mistake anika... and you deserve this... - HER HEART REPLIED TO HER TEARS. 

by then Shreya came out of her room and saw anika crying by sitting on the floor, she immediately ran towards her and enquired "why are you crying ani?".

anika immediately wiped her tears and nodded no to her. where Shreya said: "ani, please don't cry ... it's paining here (pointing towards her chest)" in an innocent tone. where she smiled at her and said: "only weak girls cry, I am not the weak one..." and gave hi-fi to her. shivaay watching the whole scene from a corner.

ok, what made you wake up from the sleep? - anika asked her while dragging her and made her sit in her lap.

don't know some noise... - she replied in confusion. 

ani, where are we? we are not in the hotel? Did someone kidnap us? - shreya exclaimed in shock.

no ... we came to my friend's house... we will be going to India tomorrow? - anika told.

India? - shreya exclaimed where anika nodded yes with a smile.

by the way... who's your friend? - shreya searched for him where anika expression changed. 

tada... chocolate cookies ... - shivaay shouted in a high pitch tone and came with the tray full of chocolate cookies in his hands.

chocolate cookies ... - shreya exclaimed and ran towards him.

this chocolate cookie is too special little lady with chocolate chips and melted chocolate inside yummy, you can have it only when you do friendship with me... so friends? -  shivaay raised his hand towards her by holding chocolate cookies in another hand, Shreya licked her lips on seeing cookies, then she turned towards anika where she nodded yes with the smile.

give me the cookie. - shreya asked him. 

so friends... - shivaay asked her.

first, give the cookie then I will think about it... - Shreya said with a swag where anika stunned for a while with her reply. shivaay smiled and gave the cookie to her without saying any word to her.

ok, tell your name... - Shreya asked him while chewing the cookie where anika rolled her eyes in shock.

shivaay... - he replied.

full name... - Shreya asked in a stern tone.

shivaay Singh Oberoi... - he replied.

such a big name ... how can I remember? let's make it short... SSO is fine? - she asked in a stern tone where he nodded.

congratulations SSO, you got selected in the first round ... there is two more round left to become my friend so best of luck... - Shreya said and turned back with a swag, anika jaw dropped in the shock where shivaay smiled at her antics.