The Devil Within (yujae)

7

Yuta walked into his apartment and locked the door. He glanced at the kitchen and sighed. Fuck it. I am not even going to try and eat tonight. This was a theme for Yuta. Some nights he would eat like normal. Most nights he at little to nothing. He just couldn't stomach it. He already didn't like how he looked but what would he do if he gained too much weight? Became fat? He didn't think he could hate himself any more than he currently did.

He went to his bedroom, took his shoes and pants off and laid down on the bed. He was tired and wanted to sleep but didn't want to have another nightmare. He honestly thought they were slowly coming to an end. Until the other night. That was an unwelcome surprise. He turned his music on again. Choosing a calmer playlist this time. Maybe changing it up would help. He hugged his pillow and rolled over.

Yutas hands were tied to the headboard. He was sweating and silently crying. He didn't want to make it any worse than it already was. What's wrong baby boy. Did you miss daddy while he was at work? The man sat on the bed next to Yuta and stroked his cheek. Don't worry. I'll make you feel good. Just be a good little slut and we'll both have a great night. He kissed Yutas cheek and walked out of the room.

Yuta woke up crying again. He wiped his eyes and sat on the edge of his bed, taking a deep breath. These nightmares were too close together. These better not become a fucking nightly thing again. I don't think I can handle that. He opened his window and crawled out, sitting on the fire escape. This was his safe place. He could be out in the night, the quiet, and nothing would bother him here. 

He put his head in his hands and thought about what he was going to do. He needed to find a way to sleep more than he was. A few hours a night was not cutting it. He had already planned on going to the store in the morning. Maybe he could find something there that would help him out. He would have to look online for some herbal remedies he could make at home. Yuta hated taking medicine but if he could find something more holistic he would give it a try. 

He sat outside longer than he should but it was nice. He climbed back inside, shut the window and got back into bed. Please. Pllleeas,e let me be able to sleep just a little while without the nightmare coming back. Please let someone hear me. Before he fell asleep, he thought he heard something outside his window. But sleep was pulling him in and he didn't have the energy to go check.

Jaehyun sighed and leaned his head on the glass of Yuta's window. Sleep well Yuta. I will watch over you.