Depressed Love~ Deamus

Realizing

i never thought that......dean loves me i cant help but look at the picture once again, i flip through the remaining pages which are normal diary entries but i just want to see if there is anything about how long he's liked me or something!! and when i get to the end a paper falls out and i still snatch it up and read it when i see it was written the night before dean stopped talking to me

Dear Journal,

I've been having nightmares and this time they came true...i went after seamus with harry's invisibility cloak when seamus told me he was 'going to the library' but i knew he wasn't as i can tell when hes lying...i wish i didn't because it turned out that seamus kissed this raven-claw gal and my whole world broke...it felt like someone has cast crucio on me...i turned and ran as fast as i could to get here and i decided to draw as i usual do, with my eyes closed and just letting my hand draw whatever then opening my eyes to see what i drew and as usual it was something to do with sea- i mean seamus and it was us kissing but i knew that would never happen as he has that raven-claw but still it hurt like hell. so i decided to erase myself from his world.....he deserves to be happy...he isn't happy with me so ill go...its gonna hurt but at least hell be happy...

Sincerely,dean

*i hurt dean because of emma, i never wanted it but i fell in love with her, but now that i know all this i realize.......i love you. its too late but i do i finally realize it but i love dean. he was there! unlike many other people he made me so happy i didn't have a care in the world!*  i put the book and letter back under the bed and realized that ron and the others was going to be here soon and then before i knew it i was running out of the castle and into the forbidden forest. i got to the black lake before i collapsed in tears i broke down into sob's and then everything was black

Dean POV

i was walking down to the black lake and when i got there i saw seamus collap and break down into tears *what the hell!!* i started walking faster and seamus was curled into a tiny ball and i stopped short when i heard something come from seamus "d-d-dean.." then i saw him stop moving and i panicked and ran him back to the castle and to the hospital wing i layed seamus down on the floor and pulled out a paper and quill and wrote a note:

Dear, mrs. pomfrey

i found seamus like this in the forbidden forest down by black lake and all i saw was him collap and break out into sobs curling onto a ball and suddenly he went still.

i put the note beside him and knocked on the door and ran

Third Person POV

mrs. pomfrey open the door and was seamus "oh my!!" she picked him up and ran to a bed and placed him down on it and started to test him and after seeing him not breathing she shocks him with a shocking spell

Seamus POV

i wake up to a shock and sit up slowly and see mrs. pomfrey standing above me and start asking questions and then she takes a test to see my symptoms and when she comes back i see tears in her eyes and she says one word and one word only and that makes me realize its true "depression"