Beautifully Broken

Chapter 11

I wake up back in my bed, dad apparently carried me down because it started to rain on the roof. I get out of bed and don't feel like doing anything at all. I don't want to just sit at home all day because I don't want to think about what's been going on. I look at my phone and I have 5 missed calls from Holden.

Great.

I honestly wouldn't give a crap if I ever talked to him again, even though he was one of the best things that ever happened to me up until yesterday. I call Claire and ask her if she wanted to go with me to the mall.

"Are you up for a mall day?" I ask her

"Sure. I'll be over in 10." she says

I get dressed in blue jean shorts and a black flowy shirt. I leave my hair naturally wavy for today with my normal makeup. I hear a horn honk and its Claire outside.

"Hey." I smile opening the passenger door. Her car is decorated with beads on the mirror and pictures of her and Fin.

"Fin called and told me about what happened..." she said quietly

"Yeah. I freaking hate both of them now. I thought Holden and I had something but it's just over at this point. He's been having Blaire over and they've been hooking up." I huff.

"I hate her. She's all over EVERYONE."

We arrived at the mall and went inside the food court. Normally at the mall I'm fine, but today I've got weird vibes, like somebody is watching me. We grabbed some pizza from the pizza place here and sat down.

"How are you and Fin?" I ask her

"Great." she smiles happily.

We get up and decide to check out some stores. We go into Tilly's, our favorite. I spotted a cute plaid button up and some white lace shirts. Claire found some grey cardigans and black leggings. We checked out and walked into the main mall hallways.

"Do you want to go to any other stores?" I ask her

"Yea, if that's okay." she says

I nod. My stomach is having bad pains. "Do you mind if I just go sit over there for a minute?" I ask

She nods. "Are you okay?"

"Yea..."

"I'll be right back." she says hurrying.

I turn around to sit down when someone snatches my hand and leads me into a dark closet. I'm so afraid. I don't know what's happening or what will happen.

"Aubrey.." I hear a voice say. I know that voice. Its just not coming to me right now. The closet is so dark I can't see a thing. I felt a strong hand run through my hair and a warm breath near my face, then I smell it. His scent.

It's Holden.

"What do you want?!" I yell

"I wanted to tell you what happened.." he turns to turn the light on and he's not in good condition. I gasp and my eyes water. He's covered in bruises and he's got cuts all over him. He's got a slightly busted lip.

"Holden...."

"I felt so guilty about Blaire behind your back that I just went A-wall. I started hitting myself and hurting myself on purpose. I even went so crazy that I just carved your name in my headboard where YOU are supposed to be sleeping, not her. I just lost it. I love you so much Aub...." he cried and collapsed on the floor. "I made her leave and told her never to ever talk to me again. She said things she shouldn't have said about you and I told her to shut up because of how wonderful you are and I just--"

I cut him off. "Holden..... shhh...." I whisper into his ear. I run my hands through his hair and the back of his neck. "You didn't need to hurt yourself.." I say.

"Yes I did!!" he cries. "If I hurt you, it's only fair I hurt myself too. I was so mad. I never wanted to hurt you again." He sat up and kissed my forehead.

I kiss him back, but on the lips. His lips are swollen, but he still managed to kiss back.

"I love you..." he says to me.

"I love you too..." I say.

We sat there and cuddled against each other for the longest time. I missed him so much. "Aubrey wake up." he whispers to me.

I'm completely under his arm and his hair is a mess, which is hot.

"Why?" I ask

"Because the mall is about to close and we need to go home." he says

I nod. I get up and see Blaire waiting outside the closet. I feel kinda embarrassed.

"How'd you?--" I ask

"Holden texted me." she smirked. "Are you guys back or?.." she asks

"Yea. I think so." he says. His smile is adorable.

I nod. "Yes."