왜 울지야? (Why Are You Crying?) [EXO Kai FANFIC]

제 04 장. Familiarity

Jong-In's POV

Sh*t. That nickname. That f*cking nickname! There is only one person who can call me that!

I don't know what's happening to me, but I suddenly felt myself frozen on spot. I can clearly feel my breathings deepened, my chest tightens, and all of my blood drops down to my feet. I'm feeling cold, just because of hearing that name that only one person that I've been longing to see, is the only one allowed to call me by that nickname.

But what is this? Why do I suddenly felt as if that person is finally in front of me although I know that.. that it's impossible for her to come back? I can't be so sure, because I cannot see anything. But her voice, her voice is exactly the same! F*ck this feeling! I'm missing her!

I completely turn to where that woman just called me, "H-how.. How did you know that name?"

Sh*t. Why am I stuttering?

No one answered, and again, I can feel silence enveloped me around. She's already gone.

Maybe I'm just hallucinating. Maybe I'm just really missing her that much that I'm also hallucinating her voice.

I let out a heavy sigh and completely walk away. There's something in that Jang Yoo-Jeong's personality that I must know. And I must, know about her.

...

Yoo-Jeong's POV

Because of the fact that I stayed silent when he asked me, he was convinced that I must've walked away, but the truth is, I'm only standing beside him silently. I watch him walk away, exiting the library and completely vanish from my sight.

"What did I just called him?" I almost whisper to myself. Does that name have something to do with him? Why do he seemed so.. affected after I called him that? Was I correct? Do I have the right to call him that? What if I will receive the said last punishment because I called him something unnecessary?

"Yoo Jeong-ssi." I slightly jump on my position and look back to find this newbie again. His smiling face greeted my gloomy one and that made him tilt his head in confusion. Why do he keep on doing that as if I'm easy to be read?

"What's wrong? Why are you spacing out?" He curiously asks.

I shake my head and pull him along with me by the arm that surprise him of course. We sat on the corner where no one can see us and his face is completely filled with confusion. I let out a heavy sigh as I collect all of my courage to ask him this question that keeps on haunting in my mind, "What is the name Kai for Kim Jong-In?"

He too, widen his eyes in shock. Was it unexpected? What is really wrong with that name? Why do he seemed like.. it is a fragile and a sacred one that no one can ever mention that name easily? Why am I being so desperate to know all about these?!

His expression did not change and it made me nervous somehow. I held his warm arm as he looks down to it. I'm already feeling cold because of nervousness.

"Please, Luhan.. please. I really need the truth. Please tell me what is it to Kim Jong-In being called as Kai? W-what is it to him?" That's the time I realize that I'm already tearing up for some unknown reason. Darn this tears that keeps on rolling without my permission! What's even their reason to fall from my eyes?! Why am I being so affected all of the sudden?!

He was also taken aback for the fact that I called him by the name for the first time. "The nickname Kai.. was given by Jong-In's fiancé.. for him.. only him."

I slowly unclasp my grip from him. My breathings gone normal by the time that I hear his answer. "But how come.. you know about his nickname? Why did you suddenly brag something that can bring back everything Jong-In's past? He hates being called as Kai nowadays for it only let him reminisce the pain where he lost his beloved—"