help i'm drowning in confusion

entry two: bitch

        While we were dating you would always tell me how much of a bitch your ex-girlfriend was, you told me all the different things that she did that bothered you. How she talked to you too much after you broke up. How she did a bunch things in the relationship that really pissed you off. You even called her a bitch:

You [16/06/2014 17:48] : Alissa is a bitch.

        Whenever I did anything that reminded you of her, you would always tell me. After telling me, you would remind me of how perfect and amazing I was. You made me feel loved and special. You were my security.

Me [12/07/2014 04:03] : Muah! I miss you.

You [12/07/2014 04:04] : Don't do "Muah", Alissa does that, so does her boyfriend.

Me [12/072014 04:06] : Sorry.

You [12/07/2014 04:07] : Don't be sorry babe. I love you. I miss you.

        Then one day, after all our fights and arguments, I wasn't your special girl anymore. I was just an annoying girl who was a bitch to you. I promise you we can go back to the way we were, if you just remember what we were like. I dumped you for you. Will you finally do something for me? I miss you. I still love you. 

Me [14/09/2014 00:06] : I won't be able to get over you. I love you, I miss you. Would you have stayed with me if I didn't dump you?

You [14/09/2014 00:06] : Stop. You're doing exactly what Alissa did.

Me [14/09/2014 00:06] : What do you mean?

You [14/09/2014 00:07] : Just stop please. Look at the ratio of my messages to yours.

        I can't do anything about our past fights and arguments. I can't unignore you. I cant change what already happened, I can't make you love me again. But I will try so fucking hard to become my own person. Not become one of your ex-girlfriends. But I will become me. I'll be the ex-girlfriend that stayed your best friend.