help i'm drowning in confusion

entry five: acceptance

        Hey! I'm feeling better now. I'm over you. I still miss us. But it's all behind me now. I may cry from time to time, I may feel upset or sad. But I'm really over you. 

        I don't want to be your girlfriend anymore, I don't want to be the one you love. I don't love you anymore, I don't have eyes for you. I don't want to spend time with you the way we used to. I don't want to feel feelings for you anymore.

        I have new friends now, and it's actually really amazing. We all love each others music taste, we all talk about similar things, and I'm getting tighter and tighter to them everyday. I still have my best friend of all time beside me, despite getting annoyed at me she always comes back when I need her most, she's the best thing in my life. The people who were farthest from me during the pain came back and helped me stand up. They all knew I can be clingy and attatched, but they still helped me up and I am more than lucky to have them. Slowly, but surely, everyone is coming back to me. I'm happy without you. This was something that seemed impossible two weeks ago.

        However.

        I still want to be your friend. Giving you time was hard at first and now it's getting easier. I don't want it to be easier though, I want you to know that I still care about you. I am not heartless. I care about all of my friends. [a.n. at least I like to think I care about my friends, if you disagree with this just tell me and I'll try to show how much I care more].

        I hope you're feeling as good as I am. I hope your willing to talk soon. This will be the last time I'll ever write in this, I hope you understand why.

        Goodbye.