There's a wall around me that I've built.
Made from stones, stacked and piled on each other and double my size.
Invisible to others,
Undestroyable to anyone but me
Isn’t it fun to shut everyone out?
Being alone with no one telling you what to do.
Slowly, silently
I want to hide away from the world
The wall gets higher every day, I feel it growing.
With each breath I take and every minute I talk, it begins again.
One more stone,
Isolating me,
Continuously growing
The doors and windows are long since gone.
No one gets inside anymore, meeting the real me, seeing who I am.
Can't see,
Don't care,
Less problems
What if they cared and broke down the wall?
Would they hate me or love me, bring me to fall?
I’m realizing, regretting and rejecting them.
This wall is too high to be demolished now anyway
And I catch my breath as I smile satisfied by this:
"So it's too late after all"
I’m not the person people think I am.
I’m not amazing and I can’t do anything remotely incredible.
No talent, no ambition, no luck.
There is just me behind this wall, hiding facts and looking away.
It seems like someone’s laughing at me and my stupidity, because I can’t seem to grow up.
The wall is growing, I myself am shrinking, it’s the bitter sweet truth.
The truth I don't want to see
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Originally posted on LGBT+ Amino:
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