Deafening Silence (Construction/Re-Writing Beginning March 2020)

Chapter 9~ Not Having a Voice is Death

*Please read the authors note at the end of this chapter*

Dani's POV

Not having a voice is death. Now that Demi is home...I really want to be able to talk but I can't bring myself to do it. I know I have my voice but I don't have the courage to talk and that is super annoying, I mean esspecially since I used to so outgoing and talkative...my mom used to  pray for me to shut up now every night I hear her pray to hear my voice again. 

Demi has been home from three months now and she's still going strong. Sure she has some trouble eatting big meals but its about the baby steps. Demi is unbroken now and I couldn't be happier to watch her progress. Lovatics went all franatic when they found out Demi was home, my twitter blew up even more asking me how she was doing since Demi still has yet to return to Twitter. I showed Demi the outpour of love from her fans every night and occasionally she cried but most of the time she laughed.

When I showed Demi about how far I have come in home schooling and how I am able to graduate in May she was extatic for me. She was so proud of me, we went out and spent the night out by ourselves. 

Demi was talking about moving out on her own soon, like into apartment not far from the family home. She asked me if I wanted to move with her. I honestly want to, but I'm not sure about how mom would react to that. 

Today, I tried to force myself to talk but its not happening. I want to be able to communcate with my family like the normal human I used to be. Demi walked in on my getting frusterated about my voice and I think I scared her for a little bit, because she walked in when I whipped my white board across the room and started throwing things. I didn't calm down until after I felt a pair of arms wrap around me. Demi put me in a head lock but soon realsed me when my knees gave out and I started to fall. She pulled me on her lap and I just sobbed like a little baby.

Demi's POV

These last three months have been amazing. I still have trouble eatting big meals but it helps that I'm around loved ones when I am eatting. Mom keeps telling me that its all about the baby steps. Dani is the biggest help because she can always calm me down when she sense's that somethings wrong. Since I have yet to return to social media, Dani showed me everything that my Lovatics have been tweeting to her and how franatic they went when they found out I came home already. I was home for about 2 weeks before I went out in the public eye of LA. 

Everynight Dani shows me that days tweets to her containing the out pour of love my fans give me. Sometimes I'll cry but most times I laugh because my Lovatics are amazing. They aren't just my fans, they are my extended family.

Not too long ago Dani showed me how far she has come in homeschooling and how she is able to graduated in May, one year ahead of her actual graduating class. I was so proud of her. She is so smart and I couldn't have asked for a better "twin sister". 

Lately I have been thinking of moving into an apartment on my own, I found a few not that far from the family home but I'm not sure because I want Dani to come with me but I don't think our mom would let either one of us leave yet. I mean Dani is still considered mute and I am still considered fresh out of rehab. Mom is one protective momma bear when it comes to us, her cubs. 

Today, Dani scared me a little bit. I walked into our room and I saw her whip her white board across on our room. She soon started throwing random things and I knew she was doing this because she was upset about not being able to talk. Lately shes been forceing herself more and more to talk and I know that won't bring her voice back. 

I was able to pull her into a head lock to stop her from destorying our room but I let her go when she started to fall. I sat down next to her and pulled her on to my lap and she started to ball her eyes out. My heart couldn't help but ache for her, my sweet sweet baby sister. 

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A/N Sorry for the wait guys, I really am sorry about it. But messaging me and demanding me to update wont make me update any faster. I am in college and school will always come first before writing does. I will update when I can. 

To those of you guys who have understood this from the beginning, thank you. To those of you who haven't I'm sorry. 

Anyways, I'm sorry for the crappy filler chapter. My next update will be ten time better...or at least  I hope. 

~Ryssa