words going nowhere.

do it already

bandaids are better ripped off quickly,
drowning hurts less when it's fast.
hurry up, darling, just kill me,
i knew that my heart wouldn't last.

i sense it coming in my dreams,
killing my smile, filling thoughts in my head,
yet, i'm not terrified of dreaming,
i am scared of you instead.

darling, i beg you, rip it off fast,
your patience will kill me with time,
i thought we agreed to learn from the past,
learn from when you were mine.

i'm sorry to do this, sorry to ruin your fun,
but i'll end it myself, be happy, you won.

[i haven't needed to write in a while and even when i do it turns out terrible and i can never finish it without crying. but i needed to get it out somehow so i wrote this in 5 minutes. also this song is my forever mood lately so ig there's that.]