Everything I Hate About You •Luke Hemmings/Shay Mitchell•

XVI

Previously

At around 7 o'clock we arrived outside Madelaine's apartment. I entered the gateway with Ian trailing behind. I took the long flight of stairs until we entered her floor and I knocked on her white, wooden doors until a certain red haired girl opened the door.

"Hey Madelaine"

Present Time

"You're not welcome here" Madelaine said as she almost closed the door. I was quick enough to stop it from closing, "Madelaine, please hear me out. I have come to realise that you were right about Luke but that doesn't have to come between our friendship. I have missed you and Luke so damn much, I need you guys, if not Luke, then you. Please Mads."

"Well then, what are you waiting for? Come inside, the both of you. I'll make some coffee and we can try to find a way to bring Luke back to you." Madelaine squealed as she hugged Ian and I. I guess she missed me too?

"I actually have an idea already." I said as I sat in a familiar couch. "YOU DO!" both Ian and Mads yelled at my face at the same time and I was taken aback. "I was thinking about making a YouTube video telling Luke how much I miss him, and wait for him to reach out."

"What if he doesn't? Or lets say he doesn't even see the video?" Ian questioned m after listening to my plan. "Then, she'll go to him, how about that?" Mads replied as she came with our coffees. "Sounds peachy" I said with a thumbs up and showed the both of them the speech for my video. "You really want this don't you?" Ian said as he continued reading my script. "More than anything in the world" I replied with a smile just as we heard Travis walk through the door. "So, you both are finally friends again?" Travis said pointing at Madelaine and I with a surprised look on his face.

Without any reply I jumped off my seat and went to hug Travis. "I've missed you so much Travis!" Travis caught me from my leap and hugged me back, "Thank god you guys are friends again! I was worried Madelaine was going to go mental without you." Travis said with a chuckle as he sat down with everyone after greeting Ian. "SHUT UP!" Madelaine said with a laugh and threw a pillow at his face. "Okay, with all seriousness, I actually missed you quite a bit."

We went over the plan again so Travis knew what was going to happen and then he said "Well, what are you all waiting for, let's get this thing set up shall we?" He stood up and started getting everything ready, along with Ian who helped him. They actually get along really well.

10 minutes later

It took ten minutes to set up the whole place, I was calming all my nerves and preparing myself for what I was going to say in front of the camera. I wanted it to be perfect. "You're going to do great Shay" Mads said as if she already knew what I was thinking.

"Okay, we're ready" Ian yelled out to me as I finished redoing my hair for the millionth time. I removed myself from Madelaine's bathroom and went into her living room where everything was set up and ready to film. I sat on the chair and kept repeating my speech so I wouldn't forget it and waited until Ian was ready to record.

"Keep it together girl. You got this!" Madelaine said with a thumbs up. "AND START!" Travis said the moment Ian pressed the record button. I breathed in and out and started my intro. "Howdy, Howdy everybody, I'm Shay Mitchell and welcome to another video!"

I kept my cool and tried not to break into tears before I even started to talk, here goes nothing "So, today I'm filming something different. A while back I have made a huge mistake, I'm not going to say what it was nor am I going into much detail, but this video will be a little speech, poem or whatever you all want to call it and I want a certain person to hear it because we're not exactly in speaking terms at the moment. It is inspired by one very amazing movie '10 things I hate about you', so let's get onto the video." Ian gave me a thumbs up and that allowed me to calm down a little, making me smile. "I hate your band, the way you sing. I hate the crowd and I hate the girls around. It makes me sick and my stomach turn upside down. I hate your stupid face and that fact you already know how freaking good looking you are. I just hate you so much and your ugly smile, it makes me hurt deeply, it makes me fall hard. I hate it when you hang out with her even if it doesn't mean anything, anything at all." I stopped for a second and tears fell down my face, "You're okay" Ian and Madelaine whispered, allowing me to continue. My voice started to break already, so fast, "I hate it when you talk like that and I hate it when you walk. I hate everything about you, especially when you make me cry. I hate it when you make me laugh and the way you touch my hair. I hate the way you're so good, you're almost perfect, at least to me you are. I hate the way you make me feel and when you said goodbye. I hate the fact that you left on hold and the way you don't reply. I hate the heartbreak you put me through and the fact that you're not around and how deep you made me fall. Most of all, I hate the fact that I don't hate you, not even at all, not even close."

With that I ran out of the room, trying to stop my tears from falling. Ian stopped recording and started to edit the video with Travis. My stomach churned, my throat hurt, my tears felt hot and heavy. I couldn't stop, I started to shack uncontrollably and Madelaine tried to get me up. It didn't work, for the first time, I was actually able to let all the pain out, every single tear, every single heartbreak and every single panic attack. It felt good, I could let it all out and for the first time, I could feel what HE felt. I broke his heart and I deserved all of this. I didn't deserve, not even a little bit, not even at all.

Half an hour later

I was finally able to breath, my friends let me take it all out and I really needed that. They made me realise that it was okay to feel that way and it was okay to cry, okay to feel pain and that's what heartbreak is all about. I was finally able to come to terms with my breakup but I still needed him and I hoped he still needed me.

"POSTED!" Ian yelled out as my YouTube video was finally out for the whole world to see. I felt relaxed after I saw the positive comments in the video, Ian and Travis edited it so well, they put little clips and photos of Luke and I in between takes and it looked wonderful. I was happy to have let out all the pain left inside of me and I really hope Luke takes it all in. It has been my weakest point and he deserved to know how I felt, just as much as I needed to know how he felt too.

Hey loves, this was probably the most tear-jerking chapter that I have written. I hope it brought tears to your eyes as much as it did for me writing it. I happy to announce that I will be more active with my writing in both stories and I hope you liked reading this chapter as much as I liked writing it. Stay happy and keep reading loves. 💕