Dear Evan Hansen Smuts and Fluffs

Evan x Reader: Teach Me

The reader is Evan's best friend and grew up with Zoe and Connor as she lives next door to him. Evan is crushing hard on Zoe and you're struggling with your crush liking the girl you dated (You used to date Zoe and Evan doesn't know, you guys are still friends). The reader isn't a virgin (You dated Connor as well as Zoe, both of whom you'd had sex with during the course of the relationship.) so she offers to teach him how to kiss and things... escalate. You are also still insecure about your body and have self-harm scars on your thighs.

Warning: References to Self Harm, Smut, Swearing

You turn to look at your best friend Evan Hansen. He was rambling to you, Jared and Connor while you ate lunch, about what his therapist told him about managing his anxiety.

"And she said d-don't worry about your hands getting sweaty, or they'll be sweaty and even when you try to dry them it will get worse and the way to d-distract yourself is to imagine everyone naked, but then I get really u-uncomfortable because I think everyone's naked and then I tried it when I was talking to Zoe and I got a b-b-bon- you know a-"

"Evan!" You interrupt him as he starts to spiral out of control. He inhaled and turned to face you.

"Y-yeah?" He flashed a nervous smile at you and you reached out to touch the top of his hand, he jumped but let it stay there. You looked him in the eyes and smiled softly.

"Calm down, okay? I'm sure she didn't notice, you left straight away right?" You patted his arm before letting go and retracting it, still smiling.

"Y-yes! I, um well I actually r-ran away." He corrected you, blushing. "She's just so... so..." You flinched internally as he was lost for words to describe her, how perfect she was. It hurt, you knew it shouldn't but it did. "I know she says we're friends but I don't really know how to talk to her without you guys there and she's so beautiful..."

"Dude, that's my sister you're talking about getting a boner for!" Connor seemed to register what was being discussed and thumped the table. "Seriously dude just ask her out already so I can stop wanting to punch you!" Conner huffed and sunk down in his chair a little more and sulked.

"S-sorry!" Evan stuttered and blushed even more than before. You punched Connor in the arm.

"Listen, Evan, if you really want to ask Zoe out I could come over tonight and give you some pointers?' You still cringed at the idea of Evan - YOUR Evan asking your other best friend AND ex-girlfriend out. "I could tell you the kind of stuff she likes?"

"R-Really? That would be great Y/N!" the bell rang, Evan grinned and jumped up from his seat, kissing you hurriedly on the cheek and running away excitedly. You froze in your seat as his lips touched your cheek and felt a stirring in the depths of your stomach. At this moment you were truly grateful you weren't a guy or there may have been some issues downstairs.

"Y/N? Are you okay?" Jared poked you gently in the shoulder to check. "The bell went, we need to go.." you jumped at the contact.

"Yeah." You sighed and got up and the three of you started walking to your next class.

"You struggling with Evan liking Zoe?" Connor asked, seemingly gentle and understanding for an unprecedented moment.

"W-what? No! I-I could care less about who Evan likes! I don't care at all, not a bit!" You stuttered and tripped through the sentence, startled by Connor's perceptive question.

" I think the lady doth protest too much!" Jared quipped as you threw a nasty glare in his direction as he began to laugh. "Wow, Evan huh? Didn't see that coming! He's such a dork, the guy can't even string a proper sentence together!"