Back To You

Chapter 2

It was already August, and I chatted with Kiyoshi almost every day.

He was a good person, and it didn't only show when we started talking again in July, but also in September. I already liked Kimura back then, but he didn't like me back. I tried to get over my one-sided love for Kimura, and started talking with Hideaki - one of my classmates, also a friend of Kiyoshi's.

Eventually I did develope feelings for Hide, but I was too unsure of whether or not it was going to work out, and at the time Shihei, Hide's and Kiyoshi's friend and my classmate, had confessed to me so instead of waiting for Hide's feelings I started dating Shihei.

I actually thought Kiyoshi was mad at me for playing with Shihei's feelings for those three months when I was dating him. Within that time I started interacting with Kimura more, and my feelings for him flew back to me, which was the reason I broke up with Shihei, and lost contact with Kiyoshi.

In the first half of March I got confessed by Kimura.

It was the happiest time of my life. We had dates and spent our lunch breaks and free time together pretty much every day.

But after two weeks I started feeling a bit cautious about our relationship. 'What if he still likes Alice?' I thought. And well my doubts were more accurate than I would have liked, cause when we had reached a month of being together Kimura suddenly cut all ties with me, and started flirting with Alice.

I didn't regret dating Kimura though. I only regretted believing him, when he told me he liked me.

I would've over done a lot of things if I was able to travel in time, but I knew that all I could do now was just to move forward.
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By the end of August, my friendship with Kiyoshi had grown stronger, and we had a brother-sister kind of relationship.

I liked his careless attitude towards life and living. It was really refreshing to have someone like that in my life for a change...

The beginning of a new school year came faster than most of the students would have liked. I was between being happy to get away from home, and not wanting to see Kimura, who also happened to be my classmate.

Seeing Kimura made my chest feel tight. I was still entirely in love with him even though I told others I hated him. I mean, I did hate seeing him flirt with Alice - his crush, who he could never have, but I think it might've left others a wrong impression of my feelings.

One of my friends told me, that dating me, had changed Kimura. He was more outstanding and bold. So basically he started being a playboy after dumping me, which kind of made it easier for me to get rid of my feelings.

I did try dating two other people, but I didn't really like who I dated. They were both really nice people and cared about me a lot, and sometimes they were over caring and I didn't like it, since I liked to be independent.

Getting things done in life by myself was something that living had taught me when I was little, and lived in another city. I only lived with my mum back then, and for the most of the day she was at work, so I had to learn basic abilities like cooking, and studying on my own.

I had always hated life, I hated how unfair people can be, and how unpleasant it made others feel. I preferred living in my fantasy world, and making up stories. Stories, where love is unconditional and where people have magic in them - magic of seeing the good thing in this miserable life.

If someone asked me, why I was always living in the clouds, then I'd answer, "What better is there on the ground?"
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In the middle of the September my mum went on a trip with her girlfriend, and my stepsister for two weeks, leaving me home alone with 250 euros, my cat, and dog.

They did invite an acquaintance, who'd look out for me on schooldays, but she always got back late so I was pretty much still alone.

I was actually scared of being home by myself, so on the first weekend, since then was my birthday, I invited three of my good friends (two classmates and my girlfriend from the neighboring city)

We decided to have creamy chicken pasta as the main course and cheesecake as the dessert. Both of these were really good.

We talked about human psychology and everything that was wrong with the world. We made jokes, played cards and board games.

When my classmates had gone back to their homes, I asked Kiyoshi if he wanted to watch the sunset again with me, and my girlfriend.

Me and Kiyoshi used to watch the sunset really often when we started getting along so it was kind of nostalgic.

Seeing him in real life outside of the school felt nice. He looked exactly like I had remembered him - light brown, slightly orange hair, height around the same as mine, and greenish blue eyes sparkling through his black-framed glasses.

We didn't talk about anything special there, and moslty me and my girlfriend were just watching Kiyoshi doing some weird stuff on the bridge, which was kinda funny.

"I wonder if the water is good enough to swim..." Kiyoshi stated out of the blue.

"Mate, it's like 14°C outside, and it's autumn, do you really plan on swimming right now?" I laughed back at him.

"Yes," he answered, taking off his hoodie and the shirt.

"Wait seriously? Are you crazy?!" And as I had said that, I already saw him jumping into the water.