Forever Then. Just in Case.

Forever Then. Just in Case. (Frerard One Shot)

           Ok so, this is my first frerard, and also the first fanfic i write in english. I have no beta, so please excuse any mistakes. Coments are welcome, as well as constructive critisism. Enjoy, xoxo

         Gerard was walking alone at night. It's Halloween. Scary decorations everywhere, it's around 8pm, so the streets were full of kids running on the sidewalks wearing their costumes and carrying bags full of candy; the streets are really crowded and the excitement is tangible in the cold New Jersey air.

            Gerard was a little off the mood this year. He usually loves Halloween, the costumes, the free candy, and the fact that there's horror movies all the time on TV, but not this time. His brother Mikey just started dating this girl, and His parents look like they've just won the lottery. The girl, Alicia, she is nothing special, with her punk style and dirty looking clothes. She is nice though, and he is happy for Mikey, but he's just hurt that his parents made a Halloween dinner for Mikey's girlfriend, and completely accepted her style and preferences claiming that if their son is happy then they are happy as well. But seven years ago, when he was seventeen, when he came out to his parents, and brought Bert, his boyfriend at the time, to meet them, they totally treated the poor boy like garbage, his mom saying offensive stuff about his style, making it look like it wasn't because of him, but with the clear venom in her tongue. And his dad not saying a fucking word during the hour that Bert was there, not even looking at his face or shaking his hand. Then, after Bert went home and Gerard almost cried trying to apologize to him for his parent’s behavior, his mom started to lecture him about how “that kind of behavior” was wrong, and how it didn't go along with what God want. She kept saying she wouldn't let her son be “that kind of people”, how she wouldn't let him ruin her family’s good reputation with the old witches that sit beside her at church. She even wanted to send him to an intern school somewhere far from Bert, what saved him was that he was halfway through his last year, and Mikey, that was twelve at that time, and convinced mom that send him away wasn't a good idea. She let him stay, but she was always snapping and shooting him those disappointing looks. His dad was even worse. He ignored him since that day until, three months later, when he and Bert broke up. He just stopped talking to him, or looking to him, not doing anything that would help him in anyway. The message was clear: ‘you are not my son until you stop with this bullshit’. So he stopped. He broke up with Bert a month before he graduated. And he was destroyed. He was really in love with Bert, but he couldn't live with his parents hating him. Only Mikey and his grandma, Helena that supported him about being gay.

            After the broke up, everything came back to “normal”. No accusing looks, no ignoring anymore. But still wasn’t the same; his dad never was the same to him, he talks and helps in anything he needs, but he keeps expecting him to bring another boy for them to meet and then just go back to ignoring him again. Same with his mom. They simply ignore the fact that one of their boys is gay. They never spoke about it again after Bert, and Gerard just let things the way it was. He went to art school sometime after and yes, he had a boyfriend there for a while and fooled around with some random boys a bit too, but he never mentioned it again to his parents. Wasn’t worth it anyway, cause none of them were like Bert was; he was his first love, after all, and everyone thinks their first love will last forever. Gerard knows that he was probably the only one that was all that in love, Bert liked him that was real, but Gerard was who have been crushing on him for over a year, after they actually start talking to each other two or three months before they start dating.  But still hurts to know that he had to give up someone that was quite important to him because his parents didn’t accepted their son the way he is.

            Gerard didn't notice where he was going until the neon signs of the stores called his attention.

            He was on the street where most of the stores are located, not very far from his house. He had been on this street countless times but never at night, when everything is closed and quite silent, even though people are walking around, no one has nothing to do here, since everything is closed.