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Chapter 5

Chapter 5: the park [part 2]

"you tired?" I laughed.

"very," Vanessa sighed cutely.

"c'mon little munchkin, let's go." I carried her.

"can I?" I asked Ash, hoping he'd say yes.

"yeah, sure" he smiled.

I've noticed Ash has been smiling way more often. Is it because of me? A small part of me wanted myself to be the reason why Ash smiled. I still didn't know why though, why did I want to be the reason Ash smiled?

because you like him.

That thought was push out. It was impossible. Ash and I are like complete opposites. He's bad ass and I'm sort of a normal teenager. He's broken the law! Yet with all these things, Ash is still, Ash. All those are what makes him. But we could never be together, not that I liked him. We're complete opposites. A sudden phrase popped up in my mind. Opposites attract. I knew it was true though, because of Jack and Rose in the Titanic, or Ponyboy and Cherry in The Outsiders. But those were movies and books, they weren't real. But being a hopeless romantic, I always believed in it. Then again, Ash and I aren't that different either. We liked the same type of music, we were both pretty quiet, both of us didn't have friends or at least I think he didn't.

I focused on the sleepy angel in my arms. Her eyes started to flicker close as she started to does off. She must have been really tired. She let out a yawn and fell asleep. Soon after, she was snoring lightly. I smiled at her. I never got a baby sister or brother to take care of, even though I would've wanted one.

As the little one started to fall asleep, my mind was filled with Ash again. Geez! why, why, why?! I couldn't take my mind of him. It's like the whole day today, when I didn't have anything that occupied me, whether it was Vanessa or bad memories, they always seemed to come back after.

Ash suddenly stands up, and I finally take in his appearance. His v-neck shirt hugged it body loosely. It wasn't too tight, it wasn't like those that showed how toned his muscles were, they were just right. He had a pair of dark wash jeans and a pair of black Chuck Taylor's. Okay, I make him sound like a greaser in The Outsiders but it was true! His fringe pointed upwards, towards the right. His jaw line was so defined, like it was perfectly meant for him. I realised that I was ogling him and stopped, looking away hoping that he didn't see my whole ogling situation.

He must have did as he said, "should've taken a picture" he smirked.

Oh there it is. The prize winning smirk. It was perfect, like he was born to just keep smirking. It was like the missing puzzle to his face, but his smile was way better. It made him throw away his bad boy act or look, because of that smile. But the smirk looked hot, so I can't decide which I prefer.

I blushed at what he said. He saw me ogling him! That's so embarrassing. Then again, I was just looking at what he was wearing, right? Right. So that doesn't necessarily mean I was ogling him. Just observing him. Yeah, I'm going to say that I was observing him.

I decided to change the topic, seeing as Vanessa was asleep snoring lightly. She looked so cute.

"I think you should bring this little one back," I said.

"yeah, I'll send you home first then" he said, nodding.

I smiled at the fact that he wasn't going to ditch me and just go home. Then I blushed. I could feel the blood rush to my cheeks, making it a little tinted pink. I don't know why I was blushing. But it was sweet. He was actually acting like a gentleman.

"uh y-yeah, sure" I muttered as I stood up.

I dusted off my jeans with one hand while my other was carrying Vanessa. I looked at her and slightly smiled. Vanessa may always seem to make me smile from now on. But when she was sleeping, her face looked so serene.

The walk back home was pretty quiet, mostly because the sky was started to get dark, we'd been at the park for about two hours. The wind wasn't that strong, but it was breezy, when the wind pushed past my face. My hair didn't go crazy, which I was thankful for because then I would have a hard time getting the hair out of my face. I glanced at Ash through my hair. At the same time, he looks down at me. He was a few inches taller than me, probably about three inches. He gave me a small smile and turned his eyes back onto the pathway. The cycle then repeats with the butterflies in my stomach and my heart skipping beats.

Soon after, we arrive at my house. I was a little sad that the day was over, but all days come to an end. I just never wanted this one to.

"thanks," I smiled, thanking him genuinely.

This day was probably one of the best. I've never had friends to hang out with, never had to leave home to meet a friend, but here I am, hanging out with Ash and Vanessa.

"for?"

"today,"

"it's a pleasure, but thanks too," he gave me a smile.

"no worries," I blushed.

I gently tried to give Ash Vanessa, and note, tried. She was clutching onto my tee shirt sleeve. Her grip was actually pretty tight.

"c'mon lil' angel! you need to go home" I said softly.

"can we... meet um again?" she asked sleepily.

"you can bet on it! but now you've gotta go, okay?"

She nodded and reached out her arms for Ash. He carried her and kissed the top of her head. I held back the 'aww' that I was tempted to say. It was so cute. Ash smiled as she fell back asleep once again.

"see you Monday," he said, turning around to go back home.

"bye," I sighed.

As he turned to the right to walk back home, he flashed me a smile. A smile that made my legs turn into jelly and my head go dizzy. I sighed and went into the house.

I greeted home and headed up to shower. Then, after pulling my hair into a messy bun, I sat comfortably in my bed and wrote in my diary, finally. It's been about two days, and I finally get to write in it.

Dear diary,

sorry for not writing for two days. you've been swapped, by accident. and guess who's other diary it was. Ash. that's right. Ash.

I feel like I've wronged him. he's not mean. he's really sweet and caring when he wants to, especially with his sister, Vanessa. she's a little angel alright.

so I went to the park today with them, and I have to say, hanging out with a friend is nice. Ash said something really deep that was really important to me. it was something along the lines of "bad things are blessings in disguise, because they help you realise things. it helps you realise the importance of people and things, or how short life is, or the mistakes that may have caused someone's else's hurt". I really believed every single word. especially with the dad incident and all. he told me that because I remembered the time I fell and scraped my knee when dad brought me to the park. I started to tear up, and Ash of course saw it, so he told me that he didn't have to talk about it, but asked if I was okay. then after a while, this is what he told me.

Ash can be a real gentleman. and I get the little tingles in my stomach and heart when he smirks or smiles.

he had said "see you on Monday" which means he'd maybe talk to me on Monday! I actually can't wait for Monday now. Then again, maybe he meant that he'd see me but he wouldn't talk to me. that thought makes me a little sad actually, because after these two days, even though it's a short time, I realised that him being a bad boy may just be an act, because he's really really sweet to his sister and sometimes can be a real gentleman.

but all these feelings, they're all unusual. but these thoughts appear in my mind though, "you have a crush on him" but I always tried to push the thought away, but after today, I may or may not have realised that I actually do.

I'm not sure though, because it's Ash. he probably wouldn't like me and I wouldn't want to lose a friend because of that.

I don't know what to do, if only you could give me advice.

-Cassie

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