i stood in the bathroom mirror staring at myself trying not to break down as i replayed what happened back at my moms house and ik she didn't mean any of that shit but it still hurts plus i didn't wanna put my hands on her like that especially if i would've known she was drunk i slammed my hands down on the counter and run them through my hair gripping it tightly as i shut my eyes losing my battle to a mental breakdown but within a few minutes i was being turned around and pulled into a chest causing me to start crying as they rubbed my back kissing my head as my grip tightened on my head v-i can't do this alex*shakes her head* a-u can and u have been val just stop holding it in so much destiny is just taking things harder then u are because u try masking it all the time and at the end of the day ur hurting just as much as her we all know u didn't wanna do that so don't beat yourself up about it i promise everything is gonna be fine ok i sniffled as i let out a breath nodding slowly wrapping my arms around his torso hugging him back pulling him closer to me as he gently rubbed my head to soothe the pain i just gave myself
the next morning
i sat on the couch frustrated and still a little upset about yesterday as i held the book of wedding plans i made when i was like 16 in my lap remembering how my mom helped me with this wishing i had her here while i stared at jr laying on the carpet playing with valen getting lost in my thoughts not even realizing i was zoning out until i heard the door close and i heard tiny foot steps running into the living room so i quickly turned to see des standing there as cami ran around the couch going over to jr and valen but once we made eye contact i bit the corner of my lip turning back around putting my book on the coffee table as i looked at cami and jr gently play with valen causing me to giggle because valen really loves them and would protect them at any cost especially jr which is one thing i love about her but anyways i sat there staring as i heard her slowly walk over to the couch and eventually sit down at the end of the couch watching them play too des-val i'm sorry..i didn't mean any of that shit i was drunk and me and carlos got into this argument about me drinking and- v-destiny des-yes v-it's ok des-*looks at her*what it's not o- v-it's ok*slowly looks at her*im tired of holding grudges des*slowly starts to tear up*im ultimately tired i cant keep waste my energy on grudges anymore i have a son to look after a wedding to plan by myself because my mom isn't here to help me plus trying to make sure my fiancé mental health doesn't crumble because mine is and because he's still dealing with the fact i got an abortion without talking to him first so like i said it's ok i wiped my face as i looked back at the kids as she scooted over to me and wrapped her arms around me gently stroking her fingers through my hair as we laid back on the couch and i laid my head on her shoulder des-thanks for my hats btw i love them*whispers and kisses her head* i sniffled as i giggled letting small tears roll down my face as we continued watching the kids play with toys and each other
hours later
i giggled laying on the floor as jr crawled on top of me bouncing a little causing me to groan while holding his waist laughing a bit catching my breath as des walked in from the kitchen with cami v-oof baby ur getting heavy*sits up holding him against her chest* des-so val have you chosen a wedding planner yet v-*sighs*no mommi was helping me but idk anymore des-maybe i can help u v-*shakes her head and looks at jr*des- des-no val i can help ok u don't have to do this by urself it was quite for a moment until jr and cami started getting excited giggling and clapping causing me and des to look at each other confused as they bounced and clapped jr-dada!! ca-daddy!! me and des looked towards the door and saw alex and carlos walk in causing jr to bounce more as alex walked over to us smiling causing me to giggle as i handed jr to alex causing him to scream and laugh as alex held him up in the air kissing his cheek tickling his sides a-miss me bud jr-dada dada dada!! we laughed as alex held him on his hip now holding out a hand towards me so i grabbed it and he pulled me up into his chest quickly wrapping his arm around my waist causing me to look up at him with a small smile as he leaned down pecking my lips a-feel better v-yea thank you i pecked his cheek then turned to see carlos leaned over the couch hugging des kissing her face as cami jumped in her lap causing me to giggle knowing des and cami is all carlos have left and he wouldn't trade them for the world v-so what was y'all up to all morning*looks at alex* a-uh*looks at her*carlos was helping me with a few things v-oh really like what a-that's for me to know and for u to find out later so around five start getting ready v-what alex that's in a hour and what about jr he smirked looking behind me causing me to turn and see carlos and des wave at me causing me to smile looking back at him slightly hitting his chest v-u know how i feel about surprises a-y'all like this one just like the rest i promise i smiled kissing him as he pulled me closer causing me to giggle as i pulled away and went upstairs starting to get ready just so i had a few extra minutes *btw des replaced her nails by giving her a new set*
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