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You will never know how satisfying watching your own blood trail down your arm unless you've tried it. I had a problem. I used to self-harm. I used to watch my own blood slowly but surely spill out of a cut that I had inflicted on myself. It was my freedom. I used to do it almost daily. I stopped about a month ago. It was hard, but I tried so hard not to do it again. It worked, But only for a while. I fell D E E P E R And D E E P E R Into a hole I dug for myself. I started to believe that voice in my head once again. I made it s t r o n g e r and s t r o n g e r and soon I couldn't escape it. I shut it up the only way I knew how. I did what it told me to do. Die, it said, no one will miss you. I don't want to die, though. I won't listen to that command just yet. Hurt yourself then, you deserve it. You're just a fuck-up that's going to hell anyways, why not prepare yourself? I listened. One, t w o, t h r e e, f o u r, f i v e. Five cuts, dripping blood down my arm. Five cuts, and I'm distracted. Five cuts, and I'm okay for the time being.
I have a problem. I self-harm. I watch my own blood slowly but surely spill out of cuts that I inflict on myself. It is my freedom.
Help me.
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