15th February 2019
So he turned up after school. Yay! I was so excited, the thought of it had been the only thing getting me through double French. I wonder if he'd been excited for it. He was one of those boys. The kind that thinks he's much cooler, hotter and better at sex than he really is. I mean, by all accounts he thought he was some sort of a sex god. Quite strange really. God knows what gave him that idea. To be honest, I'm not entirely sure why I was so excited. I know, tonight we were going to try something new. A first for him. Well considering he only had his first kiss two months ago, it wasn't surprising.
And don't ask me why I was entrusting a new experience like this to him of all people because I don't know.
Same reason he had entrusted me with his first time I guess, we like the possibility that we could see a completely different side of each other. Of ourselves.
He showed up at mine still in his uniform. Awe. He's adorable. And he'd gelled his hair, to look like my boyfriend? God that'd be creepy.
He seemed so young as he deposited his black rucksack in my hallway. "God I missed you gorgeous!" He smiled. "I've been looking forward to this all today!". As have I. I'll be an experience. "Yeah I've been looking forward to it too. You're looking nice today" I replied almost halfheartedly. "Well come one then" I giggled "I'd hope you know the way by now!". I mean it's been like two months. He should really be able to navigate a flight of stairs and choose between four doors on a landing.
We ran up the charcoal carpeted stairs once more. Just like before. Holding hands. His Palms a little sweater than last time. Why? Is he as nervous as me? We crossed the threshold into my bedroom. Hearts beating fast. In time. Without hesitation, my small hands found the buttons of his white shirt and began the busy work of unfastening them.
