A Lesson In Emotions (A Tododeku Story)

Getting What You Asked For

Midoriya

Realizing something is great and all, until you understand that now you have to live with that knowledge.

And that was particularly true for Izuku Midoriya.

He had spent a good amount of time during the past few weeks trying to put a word to the feelings he felt towards a certain icy boy and he got what he asked for, along with a small price. The days after the realization were almost excrutiating. School was filled with nervous leg bouncing, sweaty palms and racing heart beats while the dorms were full of conversation dodging, isolation and overwhelming thoughts. At this point even Midoriya was astonished that no one found it suspicious. Or maybe he was just overthinking things. But what if-

Ugh he just did it again.

Midoriya slammed his door shut and leaned against it, panting slightly. He had just narrowly dodged a conversation with Todoroki which consisted of nervous blabbering and a hurried goodbye as soon as the boy had made eye contact with him.

'This is ridiculous.' Izuku groaned and sank down to the floor of his dorm, head in his hands, fingers raking through his hair. How the heck is he supposed to survive the rest of the school year, let alone the next 2 before graduation like this?! This was nothing like the Uraraka phase. Universes apart in fact.

Why is it so much different now then it was then? Does Todoroki just mean more to him than Uraraka did? But that's wrong, friendship doesn't work like that does it? But was this even a friendship anymore?

At this rate Midoriya was going to ruin the relationship he held most dear, that had been carefully constructed into something resembling close friendship. Now he was tossing it all away because he couldn't control his own emotions, let alone understand them.

"Look at you being all grown up." He mumbled to himself. "Handling things all by yourself."

He felt bad. Really bad. He felt guilty for just pushing Todoroki away without explaination, without reason. He knew how it felt to be left unanswered, confused as to what you had done and wondering how you could change yourself to maintain your relationship. Or what you thought was a relationship.

Years of trying to befriend Bakugo and others like him does that.

'No, this isn't about me, I'm hurting others for no reason- I'm acting like a child!' Midoriya stood up abruptly and pivoted harshly back around to the door, ignoring his head rush.

He was going back out there and apologizing. He was going to walk right up to Todoroki and tell him how stupid he was being and that he had never done anything wrong for Midoriya to act this way.

Yeah right.

He couldn't even get himself to lift a hand to the door handle.

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Todoroki

Todoroki blinked as he watched Midoriya mumble an apology and run off down the dorm hall. Did he do something? He must have done it a while ago though since this has been going on since Saturday. Was it the nail polish? He subconsiously rubbed a finger over the black paint on his nails which was surpisingly still intact.

Todoroki felt the earge to go after the boy but after some consideration he decided against it. If his calculations were correct, he would just ignore him if he knocked on the door, like all the other times.

To make matters worse, The Feeling was back and it was stronger than ever (without the effects of a quirk giving it steroids, that was by far the worst it had ever gotten). Each time Midoriya left running to his room or down a hallway, it would wake up as if from a slumber, fully energized and ready to wreak havoc in the young man's mind. This time wasn't any different.