difficult

five

"love him? you barely know him!"

"i sure as hell love more than i loved your dad!"

" what did you just say?" i asked, my voice breaking.

my mom sighed, "bella, sweetie-"

i didn't let her finish, instead i ran to my bathroom. i slammed the door shut, tears running down my face.

i took a few deep breathes, trying to calm myself down.

i won't cry. i won't cry. i won't cry. crying makes you weak. crying makes you weak. crying makes you weak. crying makes you weak. i'm not weak. i'm not like this. i don't do this.

once my breathing was semi normal, i walked back into my bedroom. i wasn't going to let anyone see me like this.

i wasn't going to let her see me like this.

this chapters a bit short, but i'm on vacation right now. i'll try to update more when i get back, which should be next week!