Her Secret Scars

Blink And Its Gone

What song should I put for this chapter?

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Loyal's POV

When I was five, I dreamed of being a fairytale princess. I dreamed that I had a poofy pink dress with glass slippers, just like my favorite princess, Cinderella. I had a glittery butterfly wand, and a white-rose flower crown to show off my childhood innocence.

I thought life would turn out that way, but like I said.

I was five.

A couple of years later, me and my best friend, Tessa Mitchell turned twelve. Right on the edge of our teenage years, but just like every twelve-year-old girl, we thought we were much older than we actually were.

So we went out and got boyfriends.

I stumbled into a relationship if you can even call it that, with Jaimie Sinclair, but Tessa never found anyone, so I tried my best not to rub it in her face the best I could, but maybe by trying not to rub it in her face I was doing exactly that.

From then on, we all became very close, maybe even too close for that matter. You would never think that your best friend in the whole wide world would sleep with your boyfriend, but mine did.

Yes, we were twelve, but isn't that when you're also at one of your most confusing stages?

I never had the intention of sleeping with him because WE WERE TWELVE FOR GOD-SAKE, but my best friend did. Turns out she was coming onto him the entire time, and when he figured out that I wasn't gonna give him anything, he decided to give in to her.

I walked into Tessa's room after having a screaming match with my older brother Danny, when I caught them in bed together. Jaimie fled with constant sorry's, but she....she just sat there smiling.

Like she won a gold medal or some shit.

It may have been nothing because again, we were twelve, but to me at the time, it was earth-shattering. I thought that my heart had leaped out of my chest and under her heel. Yes, I was somber over losing Jaimie who had also grown to be my best friend, but I was even more miserable over the fact that the girl who I thought I would give my life for, was the one I should have been saving it from. I was more upset over the fact that the person I trusted the most in this world, was now a complete stranger to me.

Plus who even thinks about having sex when your twelve?

I then turned thirteen and met Jake. He knew how to grace my lips with a smile, he knew what I was thinking before I did, and he knew that he was using me for his deluded game, but I was too blinded by the puppy love to see it for
what it really was.

And again, I thought I was older than I thought, and I didn't want to lose him like I did Jaimie, so I gave it up.

At the same time, I became pregnant with Harper. I became pregnant at thirteen with a sixteen-year-old as the father of my child.
From then on I was trapped. I didn't dream of my poofy pink dress or my white-rose flower crown anymore. Nor my palace where I had fifteen dogs and rooms filled to the brim with candies. Instead, I thought of how I was gonna survive this. How I was gonna handle a baby in less than nine months.

That's when I ran. I ran and I never looked back. I never looked back and that's what caused me to ruin my entire life.

But the protective shield that this man holds for me, and the beautiful courageous women who has me wrapped in her arms are giving me the breath of fresh air I haven't been able to take since I was five.