A complicated Dream

Chapter 47--songs and feelings

I wake up in the middle of the night and German has me tightly in his embrace, I guess he really was scared of loosing me today.

I'm wide awake now and I doubt I be able to get back asleep, I gently brake out of Germans arms and walk downstairs to have a glass of water, when I'm walking down I see Vilu sitting by the piano writing, she doesn't here me so I sneakily go up behind her and read the song she was writing.

I read it and I smile, it's a love song about this boy and how she feels around him and what he's like.

Vilu. I say smiling at her with a big smile on my face, she jumps and sits on the piece of paper.

What are you doing mam?

I laugh I should be asking that, I thought you were meant to be sleeping, she acts all nervous, but..I.. Dreamed this perfect dream and then I had to write down some lyrics that's all.

So you dreamed of him so who's this boy I say smiling at her. She blushes bright red. I..don't know what your talking about.

I laugh and hug her, come on you can tell me it's your first crush it's adorable.

Mam! She says blushing badly.

You are exactly like me, when ever someone talked about your father to me I would blush and get nervous and sweaty.

She laughs, so come one tell me then I say looking at her. No one! She says and then walks to the settee, i sit by the side of her, I turn to her, if you tell me I'll let you do what ever you want to do tomorrow.

She thinks about it for a while. She turns to me and shakes her head, I sighed, I started to tickle her and she starts to burst out laughing and couldn't stop, mam stop she said between her laughs. Tell me first. No she says laughing. I tickle her more and then she finally gives in.

Fine! She sits up and catches her breath from laughing she then faces me but keeps her head low, leon she whispered.

My face lightens she known leon since she was two it's just like me and German all over again, I bet you had this little crush on him for a while haven't you.

She looks up to me with wide eyes and her cheeks are red she's blushing, but..how..did you know?

I laugh because I'm a mother and also a girl and been through it I can tell! I smile at her.

I don't know mam it's just I feel weak and butterflies in my stomach when I'm around him, my heart races and I feel like it's only me and him in the world but I can't possibly love him I'm only twelve and I won't know what love is right.

I smile at Vilu when she's saying this, i bring her into my chest, Vilu that sounds like love to me and I think you should find out how he feels about you. She looks at me, but what if he don't feel anything for me I just look silly.

Vilu I had a crush in this guy for 33 years okay and only 13 years ago I told him how I felt and it turns out that he felt the same and now look at me and your father we got a beautiful child and we are happily In love, besides who couldn't love you!

Vilu hugs into me, I don't know mam I think I'll just spend loads of time with him and so then at least if he says no afterwards I had a good few days with out our friendship being awkward.

I laugh okay but you got to tell me how it goes.

Okay she laughs.

How do you always find out things about me? She laughs.

Because like I said I'm a mother and I want to know every little thing that happens to my little girl well which isn't so little anymore she already got her first love and I really want her to know that I'm always here for her and that she can tell me anything.

Vilu looks at me and sits on my lap, I know I can mam. She sinks into me. Right I think we better go to sleep now because it's almost morning!

You can go on upstairs if you want I can't get to sleep so you just relax mam.

No no it's fine but you need it more than I do because I don't want you to be sleeping all weekend I laugh but I always knew this one thing which can get you asleep or at least relaxes you. I say smiling, go on then she says confused.

Okay get comfy first. She relaxes into my lap with her head Into my chest.

I start to sing the song I always use to sing to sing to her and I stroke her face gently as I sing and she hugs into me tighter.

I can feel her body fully relax on me and I can see her eyes slowly dropping. She's finally asleep and I stop singing. I hug her into me and then I lay down with her on top of me.