HIS BROKEN MELODY
Kelsey Alanté x Uno Archer
I am ok.
I am broken.
I am fine.
My classmates treated me indifferently. Like I was a witch and they are the gods and goddesses. I don't have friends. I don't talk much. They kept on calling me mute. And a pain in the ass. It was fine for me, I never cared anyway.
I have a bitch ex friend, named Allysa. I thought she was different from other girls that I met. But when she got what she need, she left. It's funny how life's fucking me.
"Hoy Alanté dun ka nga sa dulo umaalingasaw ang baho mo", Singhal ni Allysa. I closed my fist, and stop myself from fighting back. It will be easy for me to slap her hard but I don't wanna cause chaos. So I distanced myself from. them.
And when I was left all alone, I realize how miserable I am. I realized how empty and lonely my life is. I needed someone to talk to, I want someone to rely on. Someone who can understand me. Someone who can hug me tightly. And a someone who is brave enough to stay with someone like me.
My tears formed around my eyes, readying itself to fall. I looked at my wrist band and took it off on my wrist. And I saw cuts. Deep cuts. Fresh blood.
I bit myself when I started trembling. Because this feeling is to much and it makes me wanna end my life.
While staring on my wounds, an alcohol was dropped on it. And all I can do was shrieked freaking loud. Galit akong tumingin sa taong nagbuhos nun. And only to find out that it was the transfer student. I was caught off guard when he touch my hand and brought it on his lips. Hinipan nya ang sugat ko. I stared on his eyes, para makita ang awa at panghuhusga. But I saw none, it was all gentleness.
"W-what are you doing?!", I asked nervously. Sabay bawi ng kamay ko at itinago sa likuran ko. I saw how his eyes followed my wounded wrist.
"What are YOU doing", and now his eyes met mine. Natigil ang paghinga ko ng makita ko kung gaano kaganda ang mga mata nya. His long eyelashes, pointed nose, reddish lips and his perfect jaw lined. He is handsome, alright.
"Since when did you start hurting yourself?", He gritted his teeth.
Napabalik ako sa realidad. This person is someone I don't know. I shouldn't be talking to him.
"Since when did you start caring?", I asked back. I composed myself and cleared my throat. I saw how he stiffened. And that bothers me.
"Why?" I asked. He sighed and tried to look away. I find it weird and creepy. So I step backward.
I kept on reminding myself that I don't know him.
"Uno Archer. 3rd year college, Sec A. 4th floor, 3rd building", he said carefully before walking away. Nalaglag ang panga ko sa sinabi nya.
Seriously?
Night came and I am currently sitting on the balcony. And waiting for my boyfriend's call. Yes, I do have a boyfriend.
"Baby..", he said. Napangiti agad ako ng marinig ko ang boses nya.
"Hi", I greeted him on my girlish way.
"How's your day?",
"It was fine. ",
Then we were silent for a moment. Nakakapagtaka because he used to be talkative.
"Problem?", I asked.
He sighed. "mom asked me to come with her",
"Saan daw?",
"Canada",
I lost my words and became speechless. So he'd be out of the country huh.
"What's on your naughty mind baby?", Malambing nyang tanong.
"Would you still call me everyday, everynight?", I asked. He chuckled and whistled.
"Are you worried that I will lost my communication with you?", He teased. I blushed and bit my nails.
"Of course not!", I denied. He laughed. "Kelan ba ang alis mo?", I added.
"Next business day", he cleared his throat.
"Can we meet before you go?",
"Babe.", He sighed.
I smiled painfully.
"We've been in a relationship for almost 2 years and yet, I don't have any idea about your physical appearance. I only knew your name and that's it. You're being unfair", nagtatampo kong sabi.
Imbes na makonsensya parang natutuwa pa sya. Nangunot ang noo ko.
"This does makes you happy, huh?", I mocked. Then, I heard his laughter once again. I should be mad at him right now but after hearing his laughs, I found myself smiling and laughing with him.
We talked for almost 2 hours. And we bid our goodbyes because it's getting late. We need to sleep.
I still remember how he said 'I love you' to me, sweetly.
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Morning came, I did my daily routine. And went to school.
Things happened so fast. And I can't even remember every details that I've been through.
I was about to sit on my chair but I saw the guy ,named Uno, sitting on it. I frowned.
"That's my chair.", I told him, he tilted his head and licked his lower lip. It was awkward for me cause my eyes followed his lip's movements. My cheeks turn red.
"Diba 3rd year ka? Bat ka andito?", Tanong ko para maiwasan ang pagkahiya.
Biglang sumilay ang ngisi sa namumula mula nyang labi.
"You remembered huh", he smirked. I cleared my throat.
"Bat ka nandito?", Tanong ko.
"I wanna ask you out", he smiled.
"Are you aware that I have a boyfriend?", Singhal ko. He raised his eyebrows and smiled widely.
"I am aware.",
"Bat niyayaya mo pa akong lumabas?",
"Dahil gusto ko.",.
"Gusto ko ba?",
"Your opinion doesn't matter. I'll take you out",
"You're annoying", I gritted my teeth.
"You are adorable",
"Your compliment won't change my mind",
"That's not a compliment",
"Then what was that?", I frowned.
"An adjective", he grinned.
"Out",
"Let me take you out", he whistled. I roamed my eyes around, and saw my classmates staring at me. I sighed.
"They are staring", I groaned.
"Then let's stare at them too", he grinned.
"Are you crazy?", Napabuga ako ng hangin.
"I am handsome", he chuckled.
"Uno",
"Kelsey", he smiled.
I gaped at him.
"How did you know my name?", Ngumuso sya sa ID ko.
"Come on, let's go out after class",
"I'm not a cheater.",
"That's not cheating.", He grinned.
"I'm loyal. I don't want him jealous", I said seriously. He genuinely smiled and looked at me gently.
"He won't know anyway.",
"I don't wanna lie",
"You won't lie, just don't tell him",
"My conscience will kill me", l sighed.
"You sounded like couples", my classmates groaned.
"Let's go out", Uno said.
"N—", Allysa cut me off.
"Ang arte mo Kelsey. di ka naman kagandahan duh, nagpapakipot pa. ", She rolled her eyes.
I looked at her darkly.
"I'll call my boyfriend first", I said. I took my phone out and dialed my boyfriend's number.
Unattended.
I dialed once again.
Unattended.
Kumunot noo ako.
Napatingin ako kay uno. Nakita ko kung pano sya umiwas ng tingin sakin.
He's asking me out. Is it okay? Well, this is just a friendly date. Is it?
"Uno.", I called. He stiffened and shifted on his seat.
"You can take me out", I sighed. He smiled and bit his lower lip.
"Cool", tumayo na sya sa upuan ko. "After class, hihintayin kita sa labas ng gate.", He smiled once again . I nodded without looking at him.
Then he walked away. I sighed heavily. Allysa kept on talking nasty things about me, but I don't care. I took a nap while waiting for our professor.
'wala kang kwenta'
'nang dahil sayo namatay ang kuya mo! Sana ikaw nalang ang nawala dahil wala ka namang silbi!"
Napamulat ako ng mata at biglang namutla. I looked around, still no professor at may kanya kanyang mundo ang mga classmates ko. I hurriedly took my bag and went to the comfort room.
I pulled out my wrist band and took the blade out. Kumuha ako ng tissue at pumasok sa cubicle. Biglang bumuhos ang mga luha ko. I remembered how miserable I was when I was with my parents. I remembered how many slap they did on my face. I remembered how they tought me to hurt myself freaking bad.
I need pain.
Pain.
Itinapat ko ang blade sa may pulso ko at idiniin ito sa balat ko. I closed my eyes when I felt the pain that I've been looking for. Idiniin ko pa ang blade at rumagasa pababa ang aking dugo. Tuloy tuloy ang daloy. I cried.
Humagulhol ako sa sobrang sakit. Sobrang sakit but I don't know why it makes me happy.
It's painful but I am happy.
