ᴀɴ ᴜɴᴅʏɪɴɢ ʟᴏᴠᴇ|kakashi Hatake|

ᴏᴊīᴄʜᴀɴ's ᴡɪsᴇ ᴡᴏʀᴅs ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴇʀᴠᴏᴜs ᴄʜɪʟᴅʀᴇɴ ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢs

//I'll tell you when to play the music are you can just listen to it//

Tomorrow I'll have to go to the Academy I thought bitterly .. at first I was excited to go but then I realized three things
1. I'll graduate this year and be shipped off to war because of the generation I'm in
2. If I allow Obito to live I won't know anything about what the future holds
3. I've never actually had friends , and I'll be forced on a team and have to communicate.. which makes me nervous ! And on top of it all in the youngest in my class !

Or well that's what 'Ojīchan' told me , speaking of the devil .. I thought as he walked in

"Hello Aka" he said "excited to join the academy tomorrow? You won't be cramped up in this room for much longer dear"

"H-hai" I lied , sighing .

"Hmm Aka that's not like you , you were excited yesterday ? Don't you want to be a shinobi ?"

"Yes I am.. I'm just nervous .. I'm nervous about a lot right now .. specially about " I stopped myself embarrassed

"It's okay Aka you can tell me.."

"About being around others my age .. making friends .. and the expectations of being a ninja ya know?" I said blushing "I just feel like I won't ever be able to save anyone .. I couldn't even save Granny.." I whispered . The hokage grabbed my hands and looked at my face

"Hold your head up child ." He let go of my hands sitting in the chair besides my bed "let me tell you a story.. this one .. well its quite old down the mythical drain .. " he cleared his voice and began

"Once a young man asked the wise man, Socrates, the secret to success. Socrates patiently listened to the man's question and told him to meet him near the river the next morning for the answer. The next morning Socrates asked the young man to walk with him towards the river. As they went in the river the water got up to their neck. But to the young man's surprise Socrates ducked him into the water.The young man struggled to get out of the water, but Socrates was strong and kept him there until the boy started turning blue. Socrates pulled the man's head out of the water. The young man gasps and took a deep breath of air. Socrates asked, 'What did you want the most when your head was in the water?" The young man replied, "Air." Socrates said, "That is the secret to success. When you want success as badly as you wanted the air while you were in the water, then you will get it. There is no other secret.' Do you understand Aka?"

I clueless started at him .. so your saying you want to drown me I thought dumbly

"And no I don't want to drown you" i puffed out my cheeks

"No I don't get it Ojīchan" he sighed and explained

" A burning desire is the starting point of all accomplishment. Just like a small fire cannot give much heat, a weak desire cannot produce great results. So if you want something enough , try harder enough , an believe harder enough-"

"I can do it ? " I asked , as he nodded . A small warmth filled my chest .. I haven't felt this way since Granny . I thought silently looking at my now shaking hands.

"Every person in the world has a story. Don't judge people before you truly know them. The truth might surprise you. I'm sure you'll fit in fine with your team Aka, and make friends at the academy .." The third said thoughtfully

"Hai! " I said feeling a lot better, and leaning over the bed to grab a set of papers "hokage-sama, I finished all the work but I was wondering tomorrow .. uh where do I go ? I haven't left the village so I'm not sure"

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Leave the hospital take a right , go for a mile then turn left again . It's on the left
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Eh . Oh yeah I forgot about my Wikipedia brain .. even though I've been using it to complete all of my school work .. it's kinda unfair like cheating to be honest

"I'll walk you tomorrow, however I'll be busy for awhile after . But you can always come by and visit me .. "

"Oh ! Where will I be staying after I get out the hospital.?, and do I need ninja clothes? "

"Do not worry child I'm sure your clothes will do . You don't need standard clothes till you become a genin , you'll be staying with a good friend of mine - who I want you to meet after school tomorrow. You'll report to my office okay ? "

//music//
"Yes sir ." I said scratching my hands , before pushing my hair back behind my ear . I wasn't cold with the hokage but I wouldn't say we are very close .. he doesn't know much about me other than some silly stories of granny or Chinma spending time with me . I never fully laughed or smiled in front of him. It was as if he keep trying to get close and I pushed up an emotional block. But his time was enough comfort and support to get me out of my shock of granny's death . Although I have repeated night terrors - they became bearable , eating meals - I was able to do that again , talking check .. I guess that's why he offered so much Time to check in on me ..

I looked up at him zoning out his voice as he looked kindly at me laughing and talking telling a story that I likely heard twenty times . But honestly sometimes .. just a few times .. I wish I could sit in this hospital forever and listen to his stories.. I wish I could stay in this moment for ever Granny .. staring at his smiling face but just like you ..

B-bum-

Ba-bum

My heart ached , like a rope tightened around my lungs .. I know .. I know to much ..

Hiruzen Sarutobi

I know your past .. but most importantly I know your future ..

I know when, how , where you die Ojīchan..

And the worst part about it all .. I can't figure out any way to save you .. with all my knowledge you'll still fall victim to something I could potentially prevent .. but knowing you even if I told you .. you'd still die for this village .. so I'd rather you live happy then in worry and distaste over the thought of your death.. because I know what you want most is the village safe .. so I'll just have to pretend won't I .. won't I Chinma ? Won't I Granny ?

I thought bitterly staring at the kind man in front of me .. this week getting closer to you .. I wasn't just mourning granny , or Chinma Ojīchan.... I was mourning you too ..

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Later that night

The young girl laid on her bed in a fetal position clutching onto a pillow as she sobbed . Pushing her face into a pillow muffling her sobs