No Place Like Home || Zouis

Zayn

(A/N I changed the title so yea sorry 'bout that)

"What did I do wrong?" I say not crying hysterically like you probably thought but clam and collected. im at Louis flat right now and he has chips and ice cream laid out just like the chick flicks. that's something I like about Louis. he likes old style things. like 60's dinners and old Greece movies. he likes those typed of things.

"Nothing, nicks a cheater, a liar, a scumbag, and if I'm honest you should have gotten rid of him sooner" he says but as soon as it comes out I can see the slight panic he has but soon goes away replaced with a sad smile.

"Look at it this way, your single" he shrugs eating a chip from the bowl

"Yea but... I don't want to be single. I'm ready to have kids an settle down" I say chomping my chip loudly and lazily, opening my mouth more than needed.

"Don't you wanna ya know.. get out of..."

"You mean don't I wanna get a 'real' job instead of showing my ass to everyone... yes" I say rolling my eyes, throwing the crumbs I have in my hand Into the bowl, missing almost all of them.

Ya know, Louis is a fucked up prick. I know he doesn't mean it, but after a year he should know this is a soft subject and he brings it up like it's a joke. like I like to show myself on camera. like I like to have sax with random actors and guys who like to be aggressive with me - I wouldn't tell Louis that - but no I don't.

"Maybe that's why nick left... Im a whore... I'm used and no one wants someone that's this used and disgusting" I say letting a tear fall from my eyes. I don't cry In front of a lot of people but Louis' seen my share of crys this last year, feels like I've cried more this year than any other in the past. not even when one of my clients pushed me down in the super market and made me suck him off the the produce section in front of everyone. it's in the internet - of course- but everyone thinks its just a sense , something that was planed out but hope. right after he took me out he said he had to pick up some things and then bam that happened.

"That's not why zayn and you know it, your a great guy, you just need to find another great guy" he says mumbling something after that.

"Yea right, he probably figured 'he can have sex with other people then so can't i' its not like I want this job Louis I don't okay fuck I really don't it's just no one will take me because everyone knows who I am around here! everyone in fucking Bradford knows who I am and who've I've sucked and who I haven't it's just ugh I hate my life I really do god I want to die im going to kill myself I swear I'm just going to do it" I say not really thinking of what I'm saying or what order they are coming out. hell I didn't even know I was full on sobbing

"Shhh zayn shhh" he says cradling my body to his chest and rocking slowly. "don't say that you don't mean it" he whisper into me hair

"Sometimes I wish I was dead"

"Your to beautiful to leave us right now, god has enough angels, he can wait" he says into my neck

"But the devil doesn't have enough Demond's"

"He'll get one soon trust me" he says and I know what he meant. even if he didn't say his name -witch I asked him not to for now on- I knew.

I look up at his eyes and I haven't noticed how blue they actually are. they are amazingly blue, grey almost. but from the light -that's coming from god only knows where- they look even prettier and maybe it's his own eyes that are creating the light because it's dark in the room,only light is from the tv.

"Can we go lay down I gave myself a headache from crying to much" he nods and brings us up to his room. I've always liked his room, it's dimly lit and all white and black. but it has a modern day type feel to it, very hipster if you ask me.

"Sweats?" I shake my head and he nods

"Right you like long sweat-ers" he jokes and I giggle a bit. the first time I've laughed in any form in a while

"Soo.. white or lavender?" I shrug and he smile

"I think lavender, it compliments your skin well. also brings out your brown eyes" he smile over his shoulder. everything he's saying doesn't feel rehearsed. it feels like he genially thinks that. like the color lavender actually brings out my eyes or how it compliments my skin. there's no pity to it, no sense of sad feeling in his words but almost flirtatious.

"You think so?" I say my voice a bit horse from only talking a bit.

"Yes, also blue and red, and green"

"So basically every color?"

"Exactly, I haven't seen you wear anything that looks bad on you, even if it's a terrible outfit you make it work and I envy that"

"Why?" I put on the shirt he hands to me pulling my socks up more giving it that 'tumblr look'

"Because you so -dare I say- pretty and you can wear anything you want and not be looked at as poorly" I let out an obnoxious short laugh

"Yea right! I'm looked at as a slut"

"A sloth!"

"Slut Louis not sloth"

"But sloths are cute and slow and you remind me of one when you wear your shirts like that, well my shirts"

"More like Harry's the sloth"

"True true" he says closing his draw and taking his cloths off. he slides into his said of the bed and looks at me.

"My side" I say hiding my face in my sleeve

"Mines well be right" I nob

"No one else can stay there except for you got it?" I nod again

"Only you"

"Only me"

"It's like your home"

"I basically live here" and I do. I'm always here. always. and if im not Louis at mine and that's the way it's kinds been since we meet. I mean I wasn't keen of Louis at first but he's grown on me and I don't think I can chop him down without having him re grow again

"It's like home"

"Home sweet home" I say and he smiles

"Exactly like home" he looked at me and I lazily smile. I look into his eyes again and blush. they are amazing I tell ya. I see him moving in closer and I blush even more. I connect are lips in a slow soft kiss, no one wanting or needing to deepen it just enjoying skin on skin contact. genuine skin on skin contact.

"Goodnight Lou"

"Goodnight Zee "

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I changed the title because the other one didn't fit very well I thought I was gunna have Louis ask zayn to be in a sex tape but then I was like nah I don't wanna do that so yea now you got this :)

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