I have been here with Tony for about 1 month and ever since Tony and Harry got in that fight I haven't seen Harry. I am really worried I don't know what happened. Tony had taken the fight upstairs and all I could hear was screaming. I could not make out anything they were saying. Which makes me even more scared. He could be dead. He could be about to die. I hope Harry is ok.
Other than having to have sex with Tony nothing crazy has happened. Me and Zayn talk to each other when Tony is not around which is a lot of time. Tony only comes down here to have sex or give us food. Now Dayn on the other hand is starting to act weird he kind of seems like he is having withdraws. I wonder if he does drugs? Dayn seems to be acting nicer he keeps telling me sorry for what he did. I kind of think that if he was doing drugs then that is what Tony is doing. If only I could find out. I would ask but I know I would only get hurt.
I wish Tony was himself still. I know that MY Tony is still in there. The sad part is even if that Tony is found I won't want him back. Not after everything he has done to me. I mean rape is one thing but kidnap is another thing. I don't and won't ever understand why he changed. Why did I have to lose him? Why on earth was it Tony? When I figured out my older sister Heaven had cancer Tony was the only one that could get me to eat, drink, and talk. Especially when we got a call saying that Heaven died. It was the worst day of my life. I can't believe Tony did this to me. Now the only person I have is Zayn and I am thankful for it. He has taken a knife in his leg for me. I don't think that I could ask for anything more. I could but I won't Zayn is all I need now he is all I will ever need.
I will never forget the first night he saved me. When we got to his house he let me cry with out judging. He helped me get through one of the worst pains of all knowing your boyfriend never really loved you like you loved him. I finally talked Tony into letting me and Zayn do what ever we wanted together. The deal is I don't try to fight Tony then me and Zayn can do whatever we want together besides leave. It took me about two weeks to get Tony to agree though. Finally after seeing how big of a pain in the butt I was he finally got tired of it and told me fine. I guess nothing really can come between REAL love.
