Alpha Pair

Im so sorry

Lucy full sprinted away from the onyx eyes boy. She ran and ran, until it was dark, until she stopped looking around herself, lost completely in her thoughts. How could she say that?
But wasn't it true?
She was too afraid of what would happen if she tried to find out.
Her feet finally stopped at a really familiar place and Lucy stared at it, standing there, panting, her hands trembling.
She unconsciously found the place she once believed was the most safe for her.
Ironically now it turned to be the hell hole trap. A rustle came from behind followed by a weak chuckle.
"Honestly? You are the last person I would except to show up at my doorstep." Lucy turned her head to the too familiar voice of once her best friend.
"Saying nothing? So unlike you Lucy." Aquarius stepped into the light created by the nearby lamp.
Lucy couldn't comprehend all of the emotions building up inside her. Her Wolf wasn't far away from tearing her throat open to give the blue haired woman in front of her piece of her mind, yet Lucy held her mouth shut to the point it physically hurt. There was no guarantee what would she make her do this time, if she let her have the control even for a second.
"But I must say you did change in the short time we've been apart. Your hair is longer." Aquarius took a step forward and Lucy took one backwards.
Aquarius glanced on the blonde's hands and Lucy look down, just to see her hands uncontrollably shaking.
"Something happened?" Aquarius asked the blonde in front of her, but all Lucy was able to see was how her hands shook. This was not her. It was never meant to be her. She used to be strong, used to have a purpose in this world. Now, she got reduced to this pile of stress and fear.
"Did you become mute or something? The Lucy I know would be back sassing me until my ears would drop off."
Lucy looked up and hissed. "My voice is fine, thanks for the concern."
Aquarius raised her eyebrows. "Now that's an answer that suits the Heartfillia I know. Well, B minus."
Lucy glared at her.
"I'm surprised you haven't called everybody already." The blonde hissed.
Aquarius crosses her arms. "Hey, I may be a bitch but a loyal one. And my loyalty always stood with you."
For a moment Lucy was completely silent.
Aquarius sighed. "Look. I have no idea why you've come here after all that, or what are you even doing here, but if I were you I would get the hell out before your scent becomes traceable."
Lucy knew she was right. She just was too confused, too much in an internal fight to notice that there is a world outside of her.
"Lucy. I mean it. Get the hell out of here. Now!" Aquarius barked and that snapped Lucy out of her trans. She turned around and full sprinted away, perfectly hearing the quiet wolf sobs that Aquarius's Wolf Virgo was making.
Lucy was a disaster.
Hurting everyone around her even by just not found anything.
And the more she thought about it the more she wished that she was the one that died that day.

"Hey Lucy." The blondes brother opened the door before she could, staring a hole through her, as she disappeared without contact again.
"Care to explain?"
Lucy just pushed through him through the door.
"Ooookay, do I have to repeat myself or?" Lorcan glared at his sister as she glared back at him. No matter what, Lorcan was still her older brother and the one in charge.
No matter what.
He didn't have to be.
But those were not the thoughts she could afford to think.
"I just had to get my mind off." She said trying to leave, but her brother cut her off. "That's not an answer and you know it. You can't just go disappearing from school without saying anything! Do you know what I've been thinking for the last few hours?! Do you have any idea what kind of scenarios I've been imagining?!" His voice was dangerously close to barking,
"I said I'm sorry Okay!?" She yelled and her brother grabbed her arm before she could try to escape. "You are not getting out of this."
"Out of what Lorcan? I am not a little kid, you really do not have to control every single of my steps!" Lucy barked, starring into her brother's eyes. His eyes were dangerously close to turning light blue, the color of every, so called, middle wolf.
Lucy knew very well that Lorcan's Wolf Loke was tired of watching her like this. Him and Celestina were siblings too, a rare occasion for Wolf's siblings to merge with real life siblings.
"You are acting like one!" Lorcan snapped and Lucy shook her head to get rid of the thoughts that were running through her head.
"You know very well why am I frightened to even let you walk into the school alone, wondering if this town was the right choice, if this pack is strong enough so they won't look here, if I hid our scents enough! I am not going to let anything happen to you or Luke, Lucy, but you've gotta be helping me here at least a little! I cannot fight you!"
"Than stop! Don't fight me!"
"So what? You telling me to submit to you?!" Lucy stood frozen as these words escaped her brothers lips.
His gaze was firm, his hand still holding her arm.
"Nee-chan is a queen. Of course you have to submit in front of her." The siblings both turned their heads to their youngest, who stood there with a teddy bear in his hands and his pajamas on.
Lucy's eyes started to water as she looked at his scar.
"I'm sorry." She gasped.
"I'm so sorry." She fell down, her whole body shaking under her tears, gasps and mourns escaping her lips.
"I'm so sorry." Like came closer and hugged his older sister around her shoulders. "Nee-chan is the strongest. I love Nee-chan!"
Lorcan's eyes began to water.
He understood what this meant.
Since that day, Lucy used to act like she didn't want to realize what happened.
Lorcan had no idea what changed.
If it was her or not.
But something moved inside her broken frozen heart.
And she finally started to accept what happened.
What she did.