Sometimes I feel like it's hard for me to trust a man I get to this place where I just want to be alone and I can't stand to see them
Like I must avoid them
Like ignoring them is easier then to speak.
Von P.O.V
I've been calling Tisa for days and she hasn't said anything to me..
Being with her is is nice I like the joy she brings to me .
She seem so resistant
But I want more than the sex we have I want something stronger.
I know it sounds deep but seriously I'm a Man I need a women who wants to stand by me.
Who will love me wipe my tears when I get emotional if I do.
I need a women who can cook for me when I need clean for me and fuck me when I need but the. Again
I want her to have someone there for her.. Someone who can love her .hold her when she need . She need someone who will talk to her listen to what she has to say ...
And someone who will rock her world...
I get out the car and head to my office and one the nurses talk to me about a patient of mine .. We talk about him for a few moments then we go see him .
Hey mr.Sealle
How are you today I check him and he seems good he tells me this crazy joke
His really funny he knows how's to make me laugh ..make me forget bout my problems..
I'll be back to check on you later okay..
Let the nurses know if you need me or anything okay..
Yes doc.thank you..
I walk to my office..
I see Tisa she looks so beautiful ..
She makes me feel alive...
Too alive like I'm not living
I walk to her and say hello there nurse low..
She smiles but not a full one..
Is everything okay.
She nods but I see she's holding back.. If there anything bothering you .you can talk to me.
She says ok
Then someone calls.
She says excuse me
And all I can sense is that something is off..
Time turns. From 11:00am to 7:00 pm then I go to my office and get ready to go.i lock the door. And head to the elevator and to the parking lot I get in my car..I wait until Tisa comes and get out the car.
Tisa I call out
Tisa
She slowly turns around
Are you ignoring me she says no..
Hops in her car and drive off..
I look so lonely and confused
what's wrong with her..
I decide to drive to her house and I say is there something I did wrong..
I use the spare key she gave me and I call out she says nothing I see she places her purse on the table take her shoes off
I hear the shower on upstairs..
I here music depressing music..
The kind that makes you cry.
I hear a apart.
It says take me back time maybe I can forget turn a different corner and we never would have met.
I say wow is this true..
I walk to the bathroom. And see her in the shower sitting there crying in the corner..
Singing you are the only one stop tears I'm so scared .im so scared..
Tisa
She gasp
Wha what are you doing here.
I know there's something wrong with you, talk to me please..
Nothing wrongs Von.
I don't believe you.
Well believe me.
I'm not leaving .
Neither am I ..
Fine I say. ..
I take off my clothes and get in there with her ..
Get out Von..
No.
Even though the shower has been going I can tells she was crying..
Tisa please talk to me..
Please.
She breaks out and says ..Von..
It's hard I just don't want to be hurt again.
I can't deal with the emotional breaks.
I'm scared of pain of loving so I distance myself .
I stay away.i really like I do. But idk ..
She breaks down and it pains me
Tisa I come closer to her and hold her. I feel your pain but I promise you that I won't hurt you.i promise I won't make you cry.
Tisa please don't ignore me speak to me.please. Pour your heart if you must .make me know all if you.
It hurts me
Tisa. Please. I need you .
She cries only this time into my chest and she says I need you too baby..I need you too..
I hold her till the hot water turns cold .. We get up I grab a towel for us.. I dry her. She still seems sad but with a hint of happiness
I told her Ill see you tomorrow ..
She says no baby. See me tonight be with me..
I follow her to the bed and hold her in my arms til she falls asleep..
I need her to trust me
With that I fall asleep
